Focus...Be yourself...Be natural!!!!

I was doubtful and had no idea about how to present the sequencing data in my thesis in a proper way. Thought for long time about different methods but still dint find any satisfactory one. So came up with this general curiosity and a hope to get some help by refering some of the earlier pHD thesis submitted in the department. Immediately logged into the university network and downloaded pdf files of about 5 recent thesis submitted by my ex-colleagues. Two of them are directly related to my work (not exactly my project but the technology used is the same) and the rest are completely different topics, but I wanted to check the approach of their writing. When I actually saw them they weren´t of much use as those are written in a cumulative way (atleast three publications from the work and a short summary of about 20 pages connecting and describing the publications).
Initially I also wanted to do that..write my thesis in cumulative way....life would have been much happier and simpler if that had worked out :(:(:( sadly I am not so lucky.....prof did not find any time to correct my publication as he is very busy and meanwhile I am running out of time.....so he asked me to drop the idea and write a normal thesis because of which I now ended up writing my great grandh (inka tala toka leni adbhuthamayina, ananthamayina, anirvachaneeyamayina, inkaa naake ardham kaani naa mahaaa grandhamu)

Anyways as I opened the downloaded files to just check the presentation of the results parts, out of irresistible attraction and curiosity I started going through the other parts of the thesis. And thats the mistake i did.....the more I read the other thesis the more i started feeling depressed, confused and completely low. Losing my confidence all kinds of doubts started arising in my mind...is my thesis good?? is my writing ok?? am I clear about my results?? did I present everything i know....or did I miss something??? is this the right way to present.....do i need to change the layout...change the order of the experiments...above all is the matter enough...do I need to shorten it or expand it...hmmmmm ayyyooooo I am so much confused......I spent almost a whole evening comparing my write up with the previous ones and getting more depressed with each section referred. Though a part of me was saying not to worry and let prof go through the matter and his remarks would be the ones I should work on, the other one was not ready to stop or atleast forget the comparison :(:(:(:(....

After many hours of internal fight about this.....refreshing my mind and clearing the data from the other thesis completely....asking a few essential questions about the actual aim of the thesis, what is a thesis....how natural and genuine the writing should be depending on personal vision and approach towards presentation of one´s own work....finally i could gain the strength to calm my mind and get back to my writing on my own in my own way.....I even had to get a new pair of glasses to energise and boost my thinking power :D:D:D(kalladdalu boledu telivitetalni gnananni istayani chinnappati nundi naako nammakam)....with a more studious and intellectual and nerdy look :D:D:D....just kidding..actually bought a pair of new glasses today in a sooper dooper offer (60€ worth glasses 10€ ke kottesaa sale offer loo).....

Anyways lesson learnt is not to make unnecessary comparisons and waste time (buying glasses also ;)).....just FOCUS and be yourself, be natural and write whatever you think and feel is right...once your heart is satisfied..you are gonna satisfy others hearts too... :):):)

I even feel the same with blogging....somedays when I browse lot and lot of blogs (for encouragement) with variety of issues and variety of interesting stories...I feel very confused and depressed about my posts....all kinds of questions arise in me about the content..will it interest anyone...what nonsense I am writing here...am I making myself clear blah blah blah....BUT when I post a genuinely inspired post of any kind any topic for my pleasure...it is definetely applauded :):):)

So at anytime anywhere anypoint of life it is always good to just Focus and be ourselves to get out the BEST of us!!!

Would like to post my current favourite song which I am listening now though it is no way related to the above post....it is from the movie JALSA(Pondalante victory, Poraatam compulsory)...Gallo telinattundee

I specially loved these beautiful lines

Urvasi voo nuvvu, rakshasi voo nuvvu, preyasi voo nuvvu naa kallaki
Oopiri voo nuvvu, oohala voo nuvvu, ooyala voo nuvvu naa manasuki

Toorupu voo nuvvu, vekuva voo nuvvu, suryudi voo nuvvu naa ningiki
Jaabili voo nuvvu, vennela voo nuvvu, taaraka voo nuvvu naa rathriki

Suhaana safar

My daily travel to and fro university and home is by a very beautiful, clean, safe, spacious, reliable, punctual, perfect and THE best BSAG (Bremen Straßenbahn AG) bus service. (Bremen lo bus lu chala punctual, fast mastaaru...time ayithe chalu ekke daaka kooda aagavu type :)). I spend around 20 mins everyday morning and evening in these excellently engineered picture perfect public service angels (I live in automobiles paradise called germany but ikkada car driving license chala expensive suma....prapanchamloo ekkada undavu intha viddooramayina fees lu).

I have been travelling in these services for the last 4 years so much so that I remember almost all the stops of all the lines...timetables of atleast 10 lines I travelled very extensively while living in different areas of the city....know the connecting lines byheart from many of the stops..hehhehe I also have a favourite seat for which I eagerly look and wish to be empty when I get into the bus or tram. Enough of introduction and advertisement to BSAG, my topic here is not that..

Everyday I get into the bus with my ipod plugged into my ears with my favourite collection queued up and I sit in my favourite seat if its free or an another window seat where I can be in my own world. Then with the songs in the background I switch in to my favourite past time, ......WATCHING PEOPLE :)...I love it!!! may it be just out of interest in observing different people, different dressing styles or in general just for time pass.

Variety of people travel with me everyday.....beautifully dressed sweet grandmas and grandpas going to the hospital or to the park, kids going to the schools, employees of the supermarkets, banks, university, young mothers with the baby prams going either to the kindergarten or to the hospital or just to stroll in the park nearby, and majority of the people are students from the nearby hostel as the bus goes to the university. Most of the co-passengers are the same and now I recognise them very well as we all take the same bus everyday (I mean sametime)...I know where they get in...which stop they get down...what they normally do during the journey...who they talk with...if they get in with partners or alone...do they have glasses....the jackets they normally wear, the bags they carry, the caps they wear, their music players etc etc :D:D:D. Different kind of activities are performed by different people.

Old people usually sit staring out of the window and concentrating on the passing stops, and if they have a company most of the time they are chatting rather complaining about their pets (cats or dogs....naaku chaala rojulaki kaani ardham kaaledu iddaru bammalu valla pillala (grand children) gurinchi kaadu pillula (cats) gurinchi maatladukuntunnarani).....Employees normally read news papers or novels, supermarket employees often start giving touch ups to their makeup....young mothers usually chat with their fellow mothers or just concentrate and forget the world watching the kid in the pram (they are the most adorable and the cutest of the passengers)...school kids are usually in groups so they are always blabbering on all random out of the blue topics which no one can understand or follow......then comes the students some read novels, some read text books, some keep correcting documents, some will be preparing for a presentation or an exam....some chat with their friends about any random issue, courses..exams...lectures...discotheks...pubs....movies..football...tv any thing...and majority of them have their music players hanging and plugged in their ears...

Among all these regular normal people, my special interest and attention is towards a class of people called Dreamers....their number is very low...atmost 5 or 6 among some 30-50 travelling at a time..these people just sit silently most of the times hugging their bags, or hand under chin and keep staring....no where...their eyes may be pointed out of the window or just inside the bus but their look is not there.....they are looking in to the infinity....deep in thoughts.... somewhere beyond this physical world, may be they are peeping into their own brains digging some past incidents or dreaming about something they wish to happen....the expression on their faces is mostly blank and puzzled....

very seldom some of them break down, eyes filled with water and tears rolling on the cheeks and they make a vain effort to control them..lest noticed by others....I feel so sad for them...(paapam entoo kashtam)...feel like going and hugging them, asking them whats wrong, hearing their problem and do something to make their heart feel light...these people stay in my memory for long time even though one of us get down the bus...

There are other kind of dreamers, the other side of the coin...the real dreamers....most of the time they behave as if they are all alone and all the others are just invisible..they nod their head a lot, blink a lot, scratch their nose a lot, adjust their hair a lot...their eyes always seem to say something, as if holding a very sweet thought, their lips tightly sealed or pressed under the teeth clearly controlling the bursting out laughter, a sweet naughty hesitant smile escaping the pressure once in a while, a hearty laugh coming out sometimes forgetting the surroundings....these people drag my attention a lot and I try to figure out whats going on inside them...did they find love, had nice moments with their partner, did someone praise their beauty, did they just win some lottery, are they gonna start a new job that day, did they finish their assignment....what is it??? or is it just that they had nice coffee in the morning...saw a funny poster on the way....remembered some scene from a movie they watched y´day.....some news they read in the morning....was appreciated at work...what is it???

whatever it may be I dont like to disturb them...I have no feeling to go and ask them...I am happy just watching them.....their smile brings an instant smile on my face too, looking at them makes me happy, thinking that they are having a beautiful thought in their brain makes me feel light, I forget all my issues for a while and all the surroundings start seeming beautiful and I carry this for long though I dont remember the person.....for the next few hours I am happy....hmmm...Life is Beautiful for atleast one in this big world....

"Zindagiii kaisi hai paheliii haiii

Kabhi to hasaayee

Kabhi ye rulayeee

Zindagiii"

Instances and observations like this often make me think who am I in this big world inhabited by some millions of unknown strange people where everyone has their own life, their own issues....Hmmm I hope all of us have such kind of moments atleast once in life :):):)....anyways wish everyone to BE HAPPY and HAVE FUN!!!!!!!!

Money making Vs. Intelligence

Had a small conversation during lunch today with my friend A and my colleague J. The conversation was started by J.....she enquired about the profession of A´s husband and expressed her amusement about him earning lot of money being a engineer. The conversation slowly moved to SAP professionals (Indian SAP´s in US) as A announced that not engineers but SAP s are the highest paid professionals in the world as they are very intelligent. I immediately shot at her saying that recieving high pay cheques and being SAP professionals has nothing to do with intelligence....as I always get very much irritated by this comment and by the common notion of us Indians relating intelligence to a particular profession and the salary drawn (as if intelligence is the sole property of only high salary recievers)...the conversation was diverted later but the issue is still lingering in my mind.

What´s the definition of intelligence??? Who are all the IIT graduates, IIM graduates, world renowed scientists, talented medical professionals, 24X7 hrs round the clock working science researchers, brain moulding professors and teachers, literature stalwarts, basic engineering professionals, automation engineers, architects, electronics engineers, agriculture researchers, space researchers, economists, IAS and other civil services stand outs.......who are all these people....are they not called intelligents?????? NO ofcourse not....they are not intelligent because they dont draw some 100k US dollars per year as an SAP consultant in US...

I do respect real SAP consultants (here I mean real professionals who had their basic education in this field and who really strived hard putting brain into it out of sheer enthusiasm and interest and love for that particular tool)...its a very wonderful amazing software developed by a very renowed team for the efficient management of any kind of firm.....and it does justify and their brains are really worth paying huge salaries as the turnover profit of the software is also huge....I definetely consider those people intelligent and I bow down for their brains....BUT then

Who are all these so called intelligent desi people drawing heavy salary cheques from very big labelled companies and calling themselves SAP consultants...who are they???? the so called H1B visa holders, thousands of them migrating to US every year designating themselves as SAP consultants.....are they real SAP professionals, did they get their basic education in SAP, are they really passionate about the software....above all how many of these SAP professionals know the exact elaboration of the acronym S A P????...what is their work profile????..how are they taken for the jobs????...why are they paid such huge amounts???? are my never answered doubts particularly seeing my very average minded friends graduating in some kind of basic biology and engineering subject.....and then taking a intensive crash SAP course for 6 weeks in some institute in hyderabad....getting the H1B visa filing some 10 years of fake experience in the field...fly to US and the next month proudly informing all his aquaintances that he is working in Hi-Fi company and drawing 100k US dollars per year.....he suddenly becomes intelligent in the whole circle....people converse about him and refer him as intelligent though you actually know him and his talents very well since childhood.....How did he become intelligent over night??? answer is....his salary made him intelligent??

No wonder if an illiterate who doesnt know anything about different professions, the essence of them and the passion involved in taking up the subject, hardship involved in excelling in the field talks this way as he only sees the outcome, the salary....BUT why we educated people talk like this.....why are we underrating other professions, why are we degrading our own fields and passions as we dont get much salary in this....when are we gonna change and start appreciating the real talent and recognise the real passion and intelligence in other fields....

dragged away with the high demand flow, bagging the oppurtunity in the bloom, grasping anything that comes your way in the struggle for existence surely will earn you good bank balance and if you are content with that, boasting about your salary, assets you have earned in India, your car, your house...congrats you are intelligent and you are a member of the so called intelligent people´s club...

HOW LONG WE ARE GONNA BE RECOGNISED BY OUR BANK BALANCE???? WHEN IS THIS GONNA CHANGE??? WHEN WILL OUR REAL TALENTS BE APPRECIATED???

I am ofcourse happy that many of the Indians are making good life because of all this..whatever it may be they are getting settled well, having good happy rich lives...BUT please dont call that intelligence.....please not the real educated community atleast....please dont get dragged away....My heart wept silently when a very passionate automation engineering graduate, who worked for the world renowed TATA motors applied for H1B with a fake 6 yrs SAP work experience...only to go to the USA and have huge bank balance (his wife thought that his salary is low).......a university gold medalist biotechnology graduate shifted to software as her USA husband wants more money.....one of my cousins a management passionate double degree (BTech(Electronics & communications) MBA (finance)) graduate.....Indian hot cake....applied for H1B with fake work experience as the salary in India was not enough....many more stories of this kind and A´s comment today during lunch provoked me to write this post...

P.S: This is not written to offend the feelings of any one personally...I am sorry if I did....its just my heart´s agony as why is the real intelligence of India disregarded or unnoticed...and a small attempt to prevent atleast few from getting flooded in the flow.

Dear A you are a very intelligent and talented agriculture scientist...dont underrate yourself...your knowledge is much more worth than just money...

"Ye pal hai wahi, jis mein hai chhupi
Koyi ek sadi, saari zindagi
Tu na poochh raaste mein kaahe
Aaye hain is tarha do raahein
Tu hi toh hai raah jo sujhaaye
Tu hi toh hai ab jo ye bataaye
Chaahe toh kis disha mein jaaye wahi des
Ye jo des hai tera, swades hai tera, tujhe hai pukaara
Ye woh bandhan hai jo kabhi toot nahin sakta"

Cut off!!! (voip connections suck)

Past four days had been Easter holidays and I was literally cut off from the external world....I did not update my blog....I did not check my regular sites.....I did not read any news.....I dint even check my mails properly as I normally do....god only knows the reason...may be sometimes you just feel like getting away from the routine and do something different....
But important mention here is that I was also cut off from phone calls to and fro to India and this is not something I wanted...It was so frustrating and I was irritated so much with the net based VoiP calling service that I am writing this post to warn all the people who are using this service.

I shifted to VOIP calling from the calling cards mode about two year ago (after all my friends certified that its a very cheap and the best service, kathi chaku pandaga cheyyochu lanti padaalu kooda vaadarulee).....all the voip services are provided by a company called Betamaxx.....the shifting occured as it was quite cheap to call to India (with a initial deposit of 10 € , 5cent per min was very cheap in those days) and also very convenient for our family to call us directly from the computer when ever they feel like (actually its a free call to germany if you have a installed application with a broadband connection). This service started with a single application (voipbuster) which was quite good and within a couple of months a new one was started (voipcheap) with cheaper tariff......so I opened an account even there buying credit.....this did not end and new applications were launched periodically with very different offers and different kind of cheaper rates.....Now as I wanted to use the service to its best...I opened an account in every new cheaper application with 10€ credit, instead of refilling the empty credit of the previous one.....
This way I created atleast 6 or 7 accounts in different applications from the same company. I used up the credit and the free days in most of them and in the past few months I had three very active applications.(voipcheap, justvoip, nonoh). Initially there was a problem with the username....i was short of names (different applications doesnt accept the same username even though they belong to the same company)...And slowly a new condition was put forward that one cant use the same payment mode for different applications (though all the money however paid goes into the same account...vaadi badhentoo ardham kaadu asalu)...what does he expect??....if we get an account, we have to stick to it and keep on putting our money into it even though we see an another cheaper one...How nonsensical is that??? (then why should they release so many applications??? I dont understand their strategy at all....cheap ani release cheyyatam enduku...kaani account kudaradu anatam enduku....anni mail accounts, usernames, payment methods evariki untaayi)

But having atleast three options......I finally ended up with three accounts in three different applications with three different kinds of payment (Bank transfer, Paypal, Credit card)...(manaki kakkurthi kadaa cheap calling system edante akkada vaalipotamee...bellam meeda eegallaga :D)
Did´nt predict the "In front crocodile festival"......Life was happy with early morning wakeup calls, daily evening blabbers with amma and nanna and anytime call to India......until last friday when suddenly all the three accounts froze and stopped connecting...they are dead there was no movement even after long trials...three accounts of mine and three of tamms all are gone with the credits added into them....we were shocked and dint know what to do......later one of our friends J informed that he experienced the same with his accounts and he did not get any asisstance or remittance from the customer service.

I couldnt even open a new account as I used up all the possible payment methods (I wonder...isn´t this a loss to the provider..if he restricts to one payment mode for one application???? naa lanti privileged customer ni pogottukuntunnadu)....anyhow even if he allows and I create a new one there is no guarantee that it wont be closed......hmmm i couldnt even get back to calling cards as its been really really long since I used them....soo spent the whole holiday with no elaborate calls from and to India...:(....

VOIP users beware...accounts can be closed any minute without any notice....

Apart from that weekend was quite nice....
A and J from Nurnberg came visiting us for the holidays and donno how time rolled off with lots of fun and loads of food......its true I did nothing in the holidays except relaxing and enjoying the leisure to its best....(yaa managed to do some thesis writing though...on saturday when the guys had their day out).
To my great pleasure I received very nice message in the fortune cookies we had yesterday in the chinese restaurant after lunch....I opened two of them and they say
"YOU ARE ON YOUR TRACK TO STARTING SOMETHING NEW"
"GRASP OPPURTUNITIES TO CREATE FUTURE"
hehehe...Actually all of us got nice messages.....(otherwise the restaurant will not get the bills paid..was A´s comment :))...MAY BE!!....but they made me really happy and boosted some energy into me to stay focussed....

With that I wish everyone a very nice week ahead!!!!!!!!

Kalyanam, kamaneeyam....jeevitham!!!!!!!

Bharath Matrimony.com(marriages are forever)!!!....this is not a kind of marketing or advertisement to this site...but just have been hearing about this a lot these days and couldnt resist from sharing my amusement here. The official website says that it is already 10 years old :O:O:O....I suppose all of you know about this very well...I dont....or may be I dint see any live examples of people using this....uhhhh where am I???? Am I still living in this world??? How come I never researched in to this..wierd :( Hmmmm!!!!!...its not completely true..actually I heard that such a site exists..from the adds in the TV and newspapers ofcourse but I obviously turned a deaf ear for all that(adds choosthe migatha channels updating elaguuu :):):)...I have very good selective hearing capacity....TV punyamaa ani... hehehe :))
I first heard about this last year when a friend of mine in US told that one of his very good friends adviced him to register in this site.....(geethopadesam (big S to small S)...eerojullo edo oka site to register kakunte pelli kaaduroooi)...small S horrified with the warning immediately got a username in the site....and within 15 days (trial period where he doesnt have to pay anything :)....free time lo ne bumper offer kottesaa...are his words) he found a very nice girl...started chatting with her and later talking...in about a month...after both of them decided that they can proceed further, informed the same to their respective parents....and both the parents made an appointment, met each other..talked...and pipi piiii dumm dumm dum...engagement and marriage took place in no time...and now they are in US newly married happy couple...I was surprised and very amused when he narrated all this to me....couldnt believe that such things are happening...
After few months heard almost similar story from one of my old friends about her cousin....my friend was very excited to tell me the story that her cousin found her soulmate through this site and now she is very happily married and settled :D:D:D...I was amazed...
And yesterday I recieved offline messages from K (one of my father´s friends daughter...currently working in the USA) that she is gonna get married in april and was asking if I will be there in India at that time (naakanta bhagyamaaa...enni pellillu miss ayyanoo ilaaga :()....already knowing that uncle is looking for a good alliance for her I casually asked her later how her father found the guy....to my great astonishment she said......
K: I found him in Bharath matrimony akka....
me: Whhaatttt????
K: ya I updated my profile in the site and send it to amma and nanna (this is quite shocking to me specially knowing her parents very well)
me: aaaaa
K: I was browsing through and found this boy´s profile very interesting....I immediately sent it to nanna and he marked interested in the boy´s profile...
me: ooooook :O:O:O
K: the boy called me up as he is also in US....we talked for few days and later we fixed a date to meet up...
me: avvunnaaa :) tarvataa....
K: he came up to my place....and we talked everything openly and wanted to decide for ourselves before taking this to the parents....
me: oook
K: we did this couple of times and later I said my consent and he also to his parents....amma and nanna talked with his parents....went to meet them at their place and soo here we are planning and packing baggage to go to India..
me: GREAT!!!!

Well this post may sound very silly and stupid to most of you...but believe me I am really surprised , amused, astonished with all this.....may be its been too long I stayed away from home and unable to realize the fact that India is developing at a very fast pace.....Its wonderful to hear all these stories from very familiar and dear people......they all had the same tone of happiness and satisfaction of both choosing their partners all by themselves and also to the contentment of their parents....isn´t this amazing...both parents and the young eligible guys and girls utilizing the technology for a very happy reason where at the end of the day all are satisfied :D:D:D Hmmm in a way this is what technology is meant to be.....for the comfort and happiness of humankind...isn´t it ;)......hmmm!!! (technology tho ppaatu parigettatam ante ide :))

P.S: I supose I can recieve a good sum as remuneration if I post this in the BM site...hehhehehe....or may be they will just tear it down and put it into trash saying naaahhh old stuff....hammo vaddulle.....

After the sad demise of soggadu Sobhan babu gaaru....I remembered this very beautiful song picturised on him in the movie Rajkumar...(this is one of my all time favourites)...past two days I have been playing this continuously....and now it is also here...

"Janaki kalaganaledu raamuni sati kagalanani eenaadu
Raamudu anukoledu janaki pati kagalanani aanadu
aanadu evaru anukonidi
eenadu manaku nijamayinadi
aa raamayanam mana jeevana paarayanam"

Yeh Din Kyaa Aayee....

"You had a great day yesterday, and you'll have a great day again, today! You are in the midst of a wonderfully happy phase, when even the grouchiest of people will cause you to giggle and smile. There's just no telling where all of this good energy has come from, but why question it? Embrace the good vibes. Have fun with them -- and have fun with that certain new someone in your life who is always so very good at making your already bright smile even brighter."

Thats my horoscope for today....call me crazy but the first thing I do every morning after coming to work is check my horoscope in yahoo :)....not that I believe in it....but many a times I found it so perfectly reflecting my mood and matching my condition (as the above one for today) that I began reading it everyday.... started feeling happy and related (as if someone is sitting over there observing me, reading my mind and stating my exact thoughts....what they are and how I like them to be)......it slowly turned into a habit and now it almost became a daily morning ritual :)...

As the above words say everything....the week so far has been fruitful satisfying and happy in its own way. I started working on my thesis again and in a much convinced way....I am finally working with LaTeX full-fledged (made it work even on my macbook:)) yesterday night was the happiest moment when I completed making a LaTeX document of one full section without any errors....it kind of feels good learning the commands....writing the codes...compiling them....checking the errors....debugging....and finally the output...there is nothing like it....its so beautiful (I now understand the contentment of software engineers when their codes finally workout)...initially i thought writing in Latex will waste my time as I have to learn all commands and there is no compulsion of it...i can write in MS-word too.....but I wanted to try it out....when I saw the first output....it completely flattered me to continue and now I am proud that I could make it...:):):)

Yesterday night we had a nice special feast with friends and the Kheema matar i made was praised by everyone (which is quite unusual).....R (the student) managed to work on his own this week...he finished his first round of whole experiment all alone and he managed it really well....though he calls me in my office every 15min....and I have to make some runs and rounds into the lab by his calls.....I am happy that he is doing the work well and the rounds are soothing to my eyes as they can see something other than bright computer screen....and above all the runs are ungluing me from my chair and I may become thin (lot of exercise....aaahhaa...thought it self is making me giggle :D).....

So right now embracing the good vibes as my horoscope says....except the certain new someone in my life...mentioned in the last line (nothing like that happened yet).....and having fun with the rain, clouds, snow, hail storms, thunder storms, cold breeze, clear sky, sunshine, heat, wind....yaa thats true all kinds of weather on the same day....(thats how Bremen is..)....:D:D:D adios....Wish Life is Beautiful for everyone....:)

The smiley sticker on my office computer says: Smiling....Thanks to you!!!

"Yeh din kyaa aaye...lage phool hasne...
dekho basanti basanti..hone lage mere sapne..

Sone jaisi ho rahi hain har subah meri...
Lage har saanjh ab gulaal se bhari...
Chalne lagi mehki huyi pawan jhoom ke....
aachal tera jhoom ke
Yeh din kya aaye lage phool hasne"

Procrastination at its BEST

Past two days I was doing everything except thesis writing...it was as if I completely forgot about it.....friday night tired by the day slept early thinking of waking up soon and writing (I slept very hard that night...was awake with closed eyes for long time....there was a fight within....one of me urging to get up and write as I was awake...and the other forcing me to sleep and get rest) ...saturday morning ofcourse I wokeup early but didn´t have any mood for writing....to warm up checked all the mails and all the blogs for updates....its almost noon by then....postponed the idea of writing for after lunch...had lunch...feeling very drowsy my mind wasnt ready for any kind of thinking.....started reading the new books I got from India talloofying the writing to the evening....its almost evening and remembered the weekly grocery shopping....so went shopping moving the writing to night slot......met couple of friends in the market and was there till night...came back, had dinner and then had a great idea of taking pictures and writing a post in my blog before thesis writing....after the post is ready I went through it a hundred times....being very much inclined for story reading....I hit the sack with the book deciding to write afresh early sunday morning and not waste any time....
Sunday morning´s alarm at 6.00am went snoozing for some hundred times and I wokeup only with the arrival of the big luggage from India....spent the next hours arranging the things...had a great heavy lunch resulting in a very sound afternoon nap.....lazily wokeup in the evening and obviously I didnt even think or have a chance of postponing as all the senses and powers inside me went numb, hated, abused, embarrassed, ashamed and the peak of procrastination was reached when I wanted to find solace in watching a movie before sleep to get refreshed for a new week ahead. :(:(:( IAM SICK!!!!
The tension is growing on me right now, my senses are feeling restless, my nerves are shaking vigorously at the idea of the spent weekend, the blood pressure is raising rapidly at the thought of Prof´s question "HOW FAR HAVE YOU COME?", blood vessels in the brain are at the verge of exploding thinking about the two main chapters I still have to complete.
HOW DID I DO THIS??? HOW COULD I DO THIS??? WHY EVERYTHING ELSE ATTRACTS ME EXCEPT WRITING????
Please help me with ideas to get over this :(:(:(

P.S: I went through my previous weekend posts and they are not any different...all of them are filled with lazyness and procrastination...I am starting to hate weekends...I dont want any of them anymore :X:X:X:X

Anmol Ratan

Yaaa tamms came back from India y´day and along with him also were coming lots n lots of pickles, sweets, snacks....what not...above all amma´s very own chepala pulusu (amma took all the pain in preparing it and also got it packed well that it wont get spoiled during the journey)....:D:D:D.....I had been very eagerly waiting for all that and more enthusiastically for the surprises that nanna said he was sending for me....

Unfortunately tamms main luggage did not reach Germany in his flight...it got stuck in Dubai and the baggage claim informed that it would be sent to us either today or tomorrow early in the morning...I seriously hope that the curry is fine and eatable coz its sent with so much of love and i wont be able to throw it with my hands.:(
But my surprises were in the cabin luggage and so I got them immediately. Guess what they are??? They are never ending pleasures and long living treasures....yaaa I have got these three great books...those that I wanted to read since long time....
Sri sri´s Mahaprastanam though I read it when I was in school...dint understand much of it...so have to see how much I can do right now.
Being a great fan of all Bapu and Ramana creations...I asked for Radhagopalam short story and nanna being the greatestesteesssttt fan of the duo sent me the whole Saahiti Sarvasvam II :):)(Radhagopalam is a small chapter in that volume).
And Vamsi´s Maa pasalapudi Kathalu is something which I dint hear about before (have a hazy memory of reading his stories in Swathi vaarapatrika)....a glance at the cover was irresistible enough to turn the pages immediately and in a while I landed in a place with lush green moist rice fields, chirping birds, divine sweet n flooding godavari waters, innocent beauty of village life, pure untouched nature and lively lives of andhra country side....all this and much more with Bapu´s illustrations...it was hard to close it :):)(Will come up with more details once I finish reading).

Apart from all this the most important and the most valuable priceless and precious ANMOL RATAN I recieved with this treasure are these signatures from nanna....totally totally spellbound and moved, touched and mesmerized....THANKS is a small word to describe my happiness...I wouldnt say that...LOVE YOU LOADS!!!!!!(Nanna+Amma+Nanamma)

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Welcome to the world of PhDs

Keerthi´s comment (a simple alternative to my complex war against cold) in my previous post reminded me a funny story that happened sometime ago in august 2005.
Those are the early days of my PhD. I share the office (so called luxurious PhD students room...as we can drink coffee and eat chocolates sitting in our place...away from the lab:D:D:D) with three more..you guessed it right...PhD students :):). Anyways on one fine day I had an appointment to see a flat at around 4´o clock in the afternoon. I got late by 10 min stuck in the lab...hurriedly packed and rushed to the tram stop..got into the first one....searched for my handy to call P who will be waiting for me to accompany me to the flat. Searched my jacket also... AYYILAA :O:O:O I left it on the office table. Hmmm...I got down at the stop, P just shot at me "Where is your handy????? I gave some million rings to it" eee eerrr I forgot in the office....hesitant hehehehehe....

Next day I reached office early, looked for my handy immediately...oh no!!! its not there on the table....I looked around the room...its not there :(:(:(..after a while when Iam searching the cupboards S came in followed by R (very techie very talented intelligent colleagues of mine)

me: guys did you see my handy...I left it here y´day
S and R together: Hmm yaa (ya we know kind of frowny head nod)...did you look under your table????
me: Whattt....under the table??? Hmm noo!!!! I looked down and saw a big thermacoal box
N came in meanwhile...three of them looking at me and said...take it out...its there...inside..me puzzled, hesitant surprised what not put the box on the table and opened it.....and

Its full of small thermacoal packing pieces....removed some from the top..nothing seen.....emptied almost half of the box......found a couple of air filled plastic bags...removed them.....there is a folded kitchen cloth napkin....unfolded it...there are a dozen of layered green paper tissues....removed them....there is a small card board box....opened it....there is a bubble wrap.....moved it aside and finally therrreeee it is MY HANDY all packed with a tape in a plastic cover....sitting there burried in the bed of thermacoal chips......

Guess why???? previous day my handy was ringing loud...(P´s call, its not set to silent)...S and N in the room heard it for 5 min.....its still ringing...couldnt bear the sound....S put it in my desk drawer...its still ringing...still loud....heard it for 5 more mins and it was unbearable...they wanted to avoid that sound....N went into the lab..consulted R on the issue...and there they go studying the mechanics of sound proofing....N brought the box with chips....R brought the rest of the layers....S packed it and kept it in....the box was left under the table to eradicate the faint sound still heard if it is on the table...(my then existing saneness wondered..why dint they switch it off or answered it once????)...missed taking a picture of that :):):)...

WELCOME TO OUR CRAZY WORLD OF PhD!!!!!!

Arre Diwanoo, Humein Pehchanoo
Kaha Se aaye, hum hain kaun
Hum hai kaun, hum hai kaaaaun????
PHD PHD PHD PHD
Hum Hain Hum Hain Hum Hain Pagal Hai Diwanoo
(Psychologically Heavily Distressed)

kitchch kitchch

Saturday night around 10´o clock...sitting in my closed airtight den ....Haatchchiii Haatchchiii!!!!....mmmm haaa Haaaaaaaaattchchii!!!!.....whats happening?? it doesn´t feel like a normal closed room sneeze....anyways (kebaab mein haddi samazhke) continued crooning with some more hurdles at different wavelengths and velocities (donno the unit for a sneeze :D) at intervals of 5mins until after an hour when I realized my jarred voice turning more unbearable. I calmed down for a minute to feel the difference and there it is....my throat is a bit itchi, rugged and scratchy.....a sudden flash and an alarm in my brain...I sensed the enemies .....the viruses....they seem to be on an attack.....should I start a war.....hmmm may be its just my presumption.....warriors dont fight at night......I decided to wait till the dawn speculating the probable reasons (if it is the attack of the viruses)....the brief walk in cold breeze to the market??? just some random exposure to aerosols flying around in the corridors??? some dust culprits from the bin providing hostage to the viruses and help them build secret army to attack????

The cruel ruthless decieving viruses have no war ethics..(papam ani vadilesthe rathri time lo donga debba teesaayi :X)...by dawn they are spread all around....they occupied the nose and throat territories and blocked them.....the frequency of the sneezes increased...me being a nonviolent soul....just neglected it after consulting the able minister Wikipedia who said...

"there is no historical proof that any known medical composition could directly defeat these viruses...they are self destructive and will completely subside in a week.....so is the famous saying written about them "Common cold resolves in 7 days without medicine and in one week with medicine"....they turn violent in the 2nd 3rd and 4th days...multiply in huge numbers causing blockages in the breath, temperature rise, headache, fatigue, cough and loss of apetite......only way to bear this is stay in the den...blow out the blockages, drink lot of ginger/peppermint tea and liquids"....hmmm

Following the expert advices I stayed calm till monday morning......the enemies seemed to have multiplied in millions over night...my voice turned baritonal and the nose completely blocked..Being overly confident on my stamina and not ready to pay the expenses of a working day because of these petty nonsensical enemies...I am a warrior....So there I go out of my den equipped with all the relaxants (paper tissues, tea bags, peppermints) to be fit to squeeze my master student prey with a new technique...an additional dose of ginger tea and generous amounts of pepper in the lunch saved me till 4´o clock....then the enemies reraised, started attacking....I couldnt work....I was furious, angry and slowly my patience levels started depriving and when they crossed the limit I decided to go back to the den to deal with them....my patience was treated as inability....come on YOU minute creatures.....You wanna fight....lets do it....I turned merciless and brutal...

Planning a strategy I immediately put on a big flask of water to boil.....added a big spoon of vicks to the steaming water and a pinch of turmeric for the extra disinfection......a bit of eucalyptus oil to work on the head....and there you go lets see who wins......steam was concentrated covered by the blanket.....heavy vapors breathed in to burn away and destroy for about 10min.....proud and satisfied...regained clear nose and throat....energised by the victory I focussed on the probable sites of origin...aerated the den for clean air and vaccumed the carpet for hidden colonies......showed the trash its destiny for providing hostage.....
To show the hidden viruses the real fun of war...prepared a very spicy pepper rasam......hot and fuming....and drank a big glass of it...there you goo.....all the left over enemies were traced and washed away...took an additional dose of peppermint after that......

My vengeant soul still not satisfied wanted to destroy all of them from their roots...leaving no chance of minute rebirth.....prepared another batch of steaming water with an extra large amount of vicks, turmeric....finally coming to the last part of my master strategy rubbed a huge amount of vicks vapourab on the nose and the throat...covered completely with a thick blanket ...I slept off.....Vicks has managed the rest of the task...I sweated and the timid, frightened, horrified enemies fled away for their life in the silent darkness of the night as they entered.....

I wokeup to a fresh new dawn today in my free clean happy kingdom.....no traces of enemies seen in the far distances (they might have fled to the MARS in horror)......pride of victory filling my nerves with new energy......I got ready and left my den (without any precaution accompaniments) HEHEHEHHAHAHHAHAHA


IAM A WARRIOR!!!!! VICTORY IS MINE!!! VIRUSES OUT THERE...TRY YOUR GUTS....FIGHT ME IF YOU ARE FOND OF HALF LIFE UNEXPECTED DEATH!!!!

Hence the saying rewritten "Common cold resolves in 7 days with/without medicine and in just 1 day with Srujana´s master strategy"

Statutory warning: the strategy mentioned above is purely for personal use...not to be tried by sensitive people and specially kids.

panga na lo panga na lo mujhse panga na lo koi
kyun ki abb main yuun badal gaya hoon
nahi main deewaana bana hoon mastaana
ab jamaane ko dikhaana hai ki main hoon cheej kya
kya main kal tak tha o yaaro, aaj kya main ban gaya
mujhse panga, panga panga na lo koi 

Joy of life :D:D:D

All the wealth in this world is not worth these cutest expressions....those sparkling crystal eyes...that innocent smile....those chubby little cheeks, hands and feet...one glance will take you to a state of ultimate happiness and peace.....Gawwd who can turn their heads from this bundle of joy...
the beauty of the entire universe on one side and the cuteness of a baby on the other....the latter is always the heavier :D:D:D

Take a look you will forget this world :):):)...Thanks ARUN for sharing this :)


http://www.flickr.com/photos/-gadgetgirl-/sets/72157594526919149/show/with/1061431501/

Yeh To Hain Sardi Mein Dhoop Ki Kirane
Utarein Jo Aangan Ko Sunhera Sa Karne
Mann Ke Aandheron Ko Roshan Sa Kar Dein
Thithurti Hatheli Ki Rangat Badal Dein
Kho na jaaye ye Taare Zameen Par

House Arrested- Self imposed!!!!!!!

Ya thats what I literally did to myself this weekend. Dont know how I spent the two days just sitting in one room (except for a very brief visit to the nearby market to return something)....gazing at the laptop (which wasnt shut down for almost 60 hours now) either sitting on the chair or lying on the bed....the window curtain is closed....the door is closed....so are all my senses :(:(:( yaa I dont know how the climate was outside in the last two days...if it rained or it was cold or sunny.....absolutely no idea.

Why did I do this?? No idea...it just happened and I realize it only now when I get the thought that the weekend is over :(....it started and it ended like a flash....dint know how the time had passed....hmmm most of the weekends these days are like this...gone are those days when the whole saturday is spent just walking around the city centre or the supermalls window shopping, looking for offers in absolutely everything (carefree, bindaazzz :):).).....and lastly getting home huge grocery bags (maaku okka week ki samanulu kaaani oka average family ki one month easy ga saripotundi aa food....yaa thats what we are..bakasuraaas)....and sundays used to be fun days of waking up late...cook some special meal....and enjoy it with a good movie....absolute rest and all refreshed and energised for the new week to start.

Compared to those days I get less tired now doing nothing....I mean no walking, no shopping, no cooking, no watching movies...in principle I should feel very fresh but NO!!! I am exhausted, stressed, wornout and feeling really crazy seeing these four walls for the last two days...:(:(:(...I am sleeping but my brain still seems to be tired, my nerves are tired, my blood circulation got stagnant...my legs and hands seems to have paralyzed....(ekkuva panukunte ide jarugutundi anukondii :):):)...kaani adi kaadu ikkada karanam)...dont know what is happening...I am not ready for tomorrow...I need rest...real rest....I want to make my brain completely blank and just stay clam...is that possible????

Anyways apart from all that crazyness going on in a part of me...I almost finished writing my results....I have to say wooooooowww what a section to write...its the easiest one so far....and the fastest in filling the pages....there are so many graphs and tables to fill in....aahhaa I filled up about 30 pages on saturday in absolutely no time...hheheeheh.....yaa its as easy as put in your diagram and just explain what you see..thats it....and the explanation in most of the experiments is the same as they are the similar tests conducted with different samples....aint that easy??? :):):)....but the real fun tho abhi shuru honee valaa hai beta.....to start with the introduction and the discussion parts....iam going numb with the mere thought of them...absolutely have no idea how to compile them...hmmm for now will rest and start afresh tomorrow....hope I get some ideas in my wierd dreams :):):) along with my blowing nose...ya I have caught bad cold today...

donno how and why :(...may be the flu viruses are in full josh enjoying their weekend....added to the very exciting ambience of my room for the last two days are now a pile of used paper tissues, peppermint tea bags and tea cup and spoons all around....a look around is making me sick. (its yaaacckkkyyy)...my head is all blocked with both the flu and you know what...so for now I switch off the lights and lay down as a blind cat and will look after this kacharaa tomorrow...:) alvida..khuda haafiz...good night!!!

I was able to feel alive for the last two days with these lively posters in my room (Caption on red rose poster: PASSION - Nothing in the world has ever been accomplished without passion) and the most melodious music from the Maestro. (not mentioning the horriblly loud sing along of my neighbour with some jamba gamba music....I resisted very hard from smashing my head)...Nenu taggutaanaa nenu naa songs head phones pettukuni vinnanuu...hehhehhehe

Here is one of the Maestro´s evergreen songs from Vamsi´s Chettukinda pleader :)

Neeru gari paaripoku
Neerasaana jaaripoku
Leee melukoo
Maarumoola daagipoku
Pirikimandu taagaboku
Lee melukoo
Endukee bhayam andukoo jayam..

PASSION poster courtesy: It was very kindly and generously donated by dear budugu...it was a great trauma for him to part with it.. but he is so kind and chethiki emuka leni type daata :):):) to give it to me and let me put it in my room...anukuntunnaraa.....I fought a spartan war to snatch it from him :):):)

Once upon a time life was beautiful like this :):):) Kaaniii ippuduu :(:(:(:(

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Busy bee....

"Mail rayali rayali ani postpone chesthuu rojuki vanda sarlu gurthu chestukuntaa ninnu (S ki mail raayali raayali ani).....ade okasari rasesthe hammayya pani ayipoindi anukuni inka vadilestha malli reply vachevaraku.....so raayaka pothe choodu you are always in my thoughts dear every day every minute" .......thats the most stupidest reasoning I gave to my best friend some time ago when I got scolded for being lazy and not writing regular mails to her....:D:D:D (the more I postpone writing to you the more I have you in my thoughts ;))

Now I suppose I have to say that to my blog also....specially after making a gala post of unveiling, boasting about writing almost every day......hmm I realize that its not so easy....I could hardly write anything this week...though I think of it every minute....a part of my brain got attached to this blog now and is keeping on pinching me to write :):):)

There is an another big work I am concerned about and for which I cant give this reasoning.....thats my thesis report....thats inexcusable...I dint put even a single word in my report in the last three days....except some LaTeX format play arounds and preparing the references chapter (these doesnt need much brain)......its not lazyness anymore....I dont have time...24 hours is not just enough...I am getting tired, exhausted, shattered, broken by evening everyday that I dont have any energy left for thinking and writing...so I am doing references and other small things after going home...

Supervising a master thesis student is not at all easy and seems like an adventure at this stage (naaku avasramaa idantha???)....specially if he doesnt have any previous experience in the techniques and have to teach him from the scratch...its gonna take hell lot of time....R is a smart student...he is grasping them fast but there is so much to learn that I cant avoid the feeling....it would have been better if he had done these atleast once in his previous work....so we had to do elaborate theory, protocol discussions before actually going into the lab (not metioning all the hell lot of paper work for the administration).....and added to all this the condition in the lab.....is a havoc....(all the powers in the world have united to test my patience)..I stopped working in the lab about a month ago and what I see is all my things are misplaced, used and scattered all over the lab....(though personally unorganized....I am one freak in the lab...I need all my stuff untouched and right at the place on the bench during work...I hate running around the lab in the middle of an experiment looking for even a small parafilm because it is taken by someone and left somewhere in the other rooms :X:X:X:X).....it took few hectic hours to bring back all the stuff to its place.....

So with all this we started off the real experiments yesterday and for now its going on well...he got good results at the end of the day......a great relief to me :):):)

R is.....wierd as he asked me if I and the people in AP. India know Sachin tendulkar (R is from Pune, India)..........
One interesting observation....he is all tensed and his hands are shivering when ever I stand beside him looking over his experiment..he takes the wrong pipettes...spills the alcohol, drops down the lids...tears his gloves...smashes the cooler door...ooofff....."R" cool it!!!!....am I so scary??? or am I sounding very strict and stubborn (eeee rrrrr like a german nazi :):):)).....hehehe no noo actually he is very much tensed as this is the first time he is doing these experiments and he is a kind of very enthusiastic and very aggressive students who like to jump in very fast and get the best of the results right from the first experiment (bachche!!! welcome to real science....hares dont win the race)
From my side sincerely and seriously Iam trying really really hard not to show all this frustration on him and teach him what all I can and be a good supervisor (not the hitler type ;))......hope I am... :D

Got a good incubation time of 3hours now...so taking time for refreshing (pouring down my blabber here relieves me a lot :):)...let me know how boring it is to read) and get back to my report writing mood.

For now gotto go...adios.....pray to god for more energy..more time :)))

Cant leave without singing in

"Katra katra milti hai
katra katra jeene doo
zindagi hai, bahane doo
pyaasi hu main pyaasi rehne doo......"

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Manic monday :O:O:O:O

Baboooooi its monday again....an another week starts....
I had good rest y´day even with the thesis writing which dint go very far...but it was good I was relaxed, was able to think calmly and write down...actually went through the whole document I completed so far which was good to do as I could fill up some obvious gaps....feeling happy with my progress I thought I deserved to treat myself with a movie....soo watched an old movie until 2ó clock in the night (even though my brain was continuously reminding me that tomm is a monday and I have to go for work....I dint give an ear to that)...so the outcome

Wokeup late in the morning and got ready and rushed to the uni......I wonder why sometimes I rush to work so tensed as if someone is there monitoring my timings??....though there is no hard and fast rule in the department to start and end a day´s work...we are completely free to work at our convenience but I feel this rush and tension to reach the department early...dont know why??? and it happens mostly on mondays....

Hmmmmm anyways reached uni and after checking all the daily updates on the net ( I did all that before sleeping y´day night..even then...may be the whole world might have changed in 8 hours...edoo aasaa inthaloki kottha mails kottha comments kottha news lu vachi untaayi ani :)).....and regular chatting with the colleagues about their weekends.....I got back to my thesis...one of the section is done and I already mailed it to prof....have to start an another one...went through the short report and was thinking seriously how to proceed....there was a door knock and someone came in...I turn around and see..thats prof looking for F who sits on the other corner of my room.....I replied he is in the lab...prof left and in a flash came back this time asking mee....how are you?? how is it going?? is everything alright?? I felt really good for that concern and with a hesitant smile nodded my head..hmmm yaa it is going ok..hmm not so well....its getting very difficult....I am writing but really not sure how it is coming....getting lot of doubts....prof smiled and said I understand but you keep writing..I got your mail didnt go through it yet but dont wait for my reply keep writing....he left...I felt really releaved and nice....that small conversation really makes lot of difference...i got motivated and continued with my report...

After sometime the master student who talked about thesis with me 10 days ago came by and said that he is interested in working with me. I asked him to inform that first to prof and he will decide how to proceed. ..during lunch prof came over asking me about the thesis student if I am willing to supervise him....I told frankly that I am hesitant as I wont be here for 6 months until the student finishes...prof said that its not a problem and I just start with him and prof will take over after I leave...I accepted and he asked me if i can give some literature to the guy to start with and he will start in the lab from tomorrow....hmmm i finished my lunch and went to prof´s room to discuss the work to be assigned to the student...prof in turn asked me to prepare a plan and send it to him...

Hmm spent the next few hours preparing the plan for the student.....replying some comments on my blog.....chatting with a friend who came by (uppara meeting as nanna said :))....mailed the plan to prof....checked all the consumables in the lab so that the student can start right away...with all that its already 9.00 pm.... rushed back home to reach the market for some grocery before it closes...:)

Hmmmmm not very manic day...it went on well except that I dint make much progress in the report...hmmm :(:(:(...thats bad though
But tomorrow is definetely going to be manic tuesday as I have to spend the whole day with the student introducing the work to him and also talk to the statistician about my analysis....oh gaawd I hate statistics...

For now I shut down and drop on my bed as I have to start very early tomorrow....GN.

Heard songs from a new movie Gamyam today found these lyrics by sirivennela very goooooood

ప్రపంచం నీలో ఉన్నదని చెప్పే దాక ఆ నిజం తెలుసుకోవా?
తెలిస్తే ప్రతి చోట నిను నువ్వే కలుసుకొని పలకరించుకోవా?

మనసులో నీవైన భావాలే బయట కనిపిస్తాయి దృశ్యాలై
నీడలు నిజాల సాక్ష్యాలే శత్రువులు నీలోని లోపాలే స్నేహితులు నీకున్న ఇష్టాలే
ఋతువులు నీ భావ చిత్రాలే
ఎదురైన మందహాసం నీలోని చెలిమి కోసం
మోసం రోషం ద్వేషం నీ మతిలి మదికి భాష్యం
పుటకా చావు రెండే రెండూ నీకవి సొంతం కావు,
పోనీ జీవిత కాలం నీదే నేస్తం, రంగులు ఏం వేస్తావో కానియ్యి

P.S. APK will translate that for you tomm :)
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Unveiling :D:D:D:D:D

WELCOME!!!!WELCOME!!!!! WELCOME!!!!! Welcome ALL to my small world, unveiled. :D:D:D
I started this blog about a month ago to record my funny, routine stories...in general day to day experiences, popping up flashbacks, memoirs, random thoughts about some special incidents at workplace or at home or just any blah blah I want to write down....I was very hesitant to share this with any of my family members or friends as

* Being an unstoppable chatterbox I might have told these things some hundred times to all of you, some hundred people before typing down here :):):))..who will dare to read this again to know the same story.
* Being very lazy I wasn´t sure if I can really post regularly...(as I stopped my previous blog unnoticed and unattended within few days of starting it).....I set myself a probation period of one month to bring this in to light, share it with everyone....AND guess what, you are reading this today because

TADAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!
I PASSED MY PROBATION WITH FLYING COLORS AND HERE IAM UNVEILING "MIRROR OF HEART", CURTAIN RAISING MY BLOG AND HEARTILY WELCOMING YOU ALL TO HAVE A LOOK!!! :D:D:D WELCOME :D:D:D

So guys and gals who are not interested in this blabber and have no mood to proceed, let me say Adios, Thank you very much for dropping by :)

And all others who are ready to check on this...GET SOME COFFEE!!!....yeah its gonna take a while :):):)......I wish you a nice stay and hope you all will enjoy reading...if you did or not I will be very glad to know...so dont forget to leave a comment or message....

P.S: Special thanks to tamms for being the first to read this (red handed ga pattukuni, telusuki, dongatanam a chadivavugaa :P)....

thanks aalapana for being the first to comment, for liking my writing and promising to visit regularly...

Budugu-Nanna :) you have no second choice than to read it from the beginning, each post, each word and each letter...memorize well....you will have a test on the details later.....:D:D:D....every answer should be compulsorily accompanied by a tag of pride, praise, and appreciation.

APK....first of all its no comparison to your colorful website (I am jealous, I dont have photography talent)...and second of all here is an another way to torture you...so better be regular and leave nice comments.....FOR every nice comment given there will be an equal and good comment given back.....:):):)

Last but not the least everyone coming here is very very important to me and please feel free to drop by when ever time permits....your visits wil be greatly acknowledged :D:D:D

Havaayen Ghataayen Fizaayen
Baagon Ne Phuulon Ne Juulon Ne Lii Jhuum Ke angadaayii
Aap Aaye Bahaaraayii Hohohoo Ho…
Saare Zamaane Pe, Mausam Suhaane Pe, is Dil Diivaane Pe
Viiraanii Sii Thii Chhaayii
aap Aaye Bahaaraayii Hohohoo Ho……

Images: Here, Here and Here

This is what happened.......

Being completely motivated to write down my report, determined to finish a section by hook or by crook and send an email to prof with the draft...10:30 pm completely exhausted by a whole day of writing, beastly hungry by the smells of the colleagues dinner...I got out of the department indifferently worried to lose track of the ideas flowchart to write down.......Wish I had a mind recorder pppttcchhh....
That is what happened y´day, ended it with this beautiful song..thanks VJ for sharing....:)..more details here.




Wokeup early to a beautiful day....pulled back the window curtains after long time to a blissful view.....rain drops were touching the window.....joining one by one (reminded Bapu´s hilarious cartoon about the first rain drop :D:D:D...cartoon added in the bottom), forming a line....sliding to the bottom.....leafless trees were dancing violently.....I opened the window and BBBBBHHUUUUU...HHHHHHOOOOEEEEEIIIIIIIIII...BHOOOOO.....DHHHAAADD......BHHHHOOOO...yaa ...yaa its a thunderstorm....I closed the window to get back to my never ending thesis writing , hot tea, with entrancing songs from Gurudutt´s collection running in the background.. :)
Here is Bapu´s cartoon I mentioned above....first varsham chukka nene first ani genthutundane konte aalochana evariki ravalii....except Bapu....this is the most hilarious cartoon on rain I have ever seen :D:D:D:

With that note I switch back into my own world.........

Vaqt Ne Kiyaa Kyaa Ha.Nsii.N Sitam
Tum Rahe Na Tum Ham Rahe Na Ham
Vaqt Ne Kiyaa...


Jaae.Nge Kahaa.N Puuchhataa Nahii.N
Chal Pa.De Magar Raastaa Nahii.N
Kyaa Talaash Hai Kuchh Pataa Nahii.N
Bun Rahe Hai.N Dil Kvaab Dam\-Ba\-Dam
Vaqt Ne Kiyaa...

abbabababbbaaa What a beautiful song...hhhmmhhh!!!!!