TERROR!!! TERROR!!! TERROR!!!

Coming back here after long long time.....I have long reasons and long stories which I definetely like to share and will do that very soon. Today I could not be silent as the attack on Mumbai is just tooo terrible to digest.

Heard a lot of news in past when I was still in Germany about such attacks in Mumbai, Delhi and Hyderabad. But somehow by the time I knew about the news I get to hear that everything got calmed down and people started normal life again. I used to feel worried about the situation until I read the whole news, may be I discuss this with a couple of indian friends and together we feel bad for the people effected and express anger at the extremists responsible and also at the administration who is unable to control such things. In the next moment I get involved in my work and forget all about it until a colleague asks me did you hear about the situation in your country? is it near to your place? is your family safe?...I used to say ya thats so sad, I do not know why this is happening to India and all the people are so much effected and ya thankfully this happened quite far away from my place and my family is safe.

Hmmm but today I am in India and I have been watching the live telecast of the situation in more than 10 channels since yesterday night. For almost 22 hours now none of us at home neither switched the TV off nor changed the channel to some other entertainment program. I saw the guns firing, flames rising high from different parts of Taj hotel at different times, fire brigades trying to stop the fire, occasional hazy view of some persons from the hotel windows, desperately written SAVE US on the hotel window by some one struck inside, washing of the blood stains from the floors of the railway station, a civilian running with blood shed hand as a bullet hit his fingers, reporters continuously trying to obtain any piece of information from the site and cameras not to miss even a minute movement in the whole picture and analysts sitting in the studios working for the whole day trying to discuss all possibilities of the situation, the pictures of the intruders clearly shown, hardly 25 years old with long guns, smart looking and casually dressed and guys who seem to have all right to enjoy and have a beautiful and happy life, police working continuously, military called in carrying on rescue operations to save atleast few and know how many are struck inside and know why all this is done, one of the rescued women newly married crying loud to death.........

Its been 22 hours since the first shot was fired and still the situation is not controlled, 9 policemen died, more than 100 civilians died and around 300 injured, 5 of the terrorists are killed, fire is destroying Taj hotel step by step, do not know the number of hostages stuck inside the hotel, do not know how many are pointing guns at them. God the whole coverage is bringing shivers in me, so well planned attack, a direct one, guns madly firing at public on roads, armed men casually walked into the city to create this havoc and no one could recognise them. What should be done to control this? The violent side in me says why the hell are these military and police taking so much time to go inside and finish all the militants and in a flash bring all the people outside. The calm side says that there are lives of donot know how many people struck inside and any hurried step by the police will keep their lives in risk. So unable to do anything.... I am just a spectator.....I am just a TV watcher sitting worried and disturbed. Hmmm I cannot do anything except to speculate different scenarios depending on the news obtained.

And silently pray for the people and police who gave their lives. May their souls rest in peace and pride on service to the nation.

How and when will all this come to an end?. When will those extremists understand the meaning of happiness and this is not the right way to obtain it. How those young guys have such stone hearts to fire guns at people. I so much wish that by some means if one can reach the hearts of all these people and make them understand the simple truth that "THE BUSINESS OF LIVING IS THE HAPPINESS OF BEING ALIVE". Who will tell them? Only a miracle can do that...I sincerely pray to God that One fine morning all the extremists should wakeup with a happy and lovely heart to see the beauty in life and enjoy the feeling of global brotherhood. May peace be in this world.

Ae jindgi gale laga le Ae jindgi gale laga le Hum ne bhi tere har ik gam ko gale se lagaya hai Hai na ? Ae jindgi gale laga le Ae jindgi

My Hat

Considering both the work and personal interests of the candidate PhD hats are very specially designed and prepared by the colleagues a few days before the defense. Here are the contents of my hat :):):)

Inspired by the olympic season that was going on, experiments on the comparison of few techniques  were given olympic places :):) placed onthe upper side.

The models of two islands in Europe I visited for my study are present on either sides.

The right one is Helgoland in the North Sea where I collected the samples and the left one is Crete in Greece where I did taxonomy of the samples. 

In between both the islands is seen the photo of ship "Heincke" on which I cruised for one week for the collection of samples.

Then is the glass slide with three arrays attached...the actual 

microarray (DNA chip) I developed duirng this work.

The is the big fish with its stomach open....indicates analyses of the gut content of fish.

Small fish, molluscs, crabs, shells present here and there indicate the invertebrate organisms I worked on.

The cups and the pipettes indicate molecular biological work.

A big chicken is seen on the rear end as its my most favourite dish.

Coffee beans are spread all over as its my most favourite drink.

The bottom of the hat consisted photo memories of Bremen with the City centre-Dom place, statue of Bremen musicians, statue of Roland, Science museum-Universum, Space centre pencil tower in the university and the pictures of microarrays all around.

The most surprising part which I least expected is.......................can you believe that my colleagues upon suggestion by tamms pasted a photo of Mahesh babu on the inner side of my hat :D:D:D incredible isn't it....I was shocked when I saw this and the happiness was boundaryless. The love showed in making this hat totally touched me and I want to thank Rijuta, miss x, Reinhard, Frank and tamms for making such a lovely hat and taking all pains to collect the things.

The "D" day

ugust 13th a unforgettable day in my life. Its a day when my dream of 12 years, my aim of coming to Germany and my agonies in Germany for 6 years what not each and every minute of life that I spent here was fulfilled, has been worthy and left me satisfied to have invested this time. It has been the most unexpected, most surprising, highly tensed (naralu tegipoyentha), highly relaxing (gallo telipotunnantha) and the most happiest day....actually its not a day its just one and half hours. Ya one and half hours on august 13th (12´noon to 1´30 pm) has effected me in many ways. I was shaking with fear, I was panicking, I was thirsty, I was sweating, I was b

lank in mind, earth under my legs was falling apart, I was stubborn, I was fragile to breakdown any moment what not it was a mixture of every single emotion a human being can experience :):):):):).

Do not think that its too much of exaggeration I am saying the truth. I actually dont have words to describe most of the feelings (adedoo cinemalo raka rakaluga undi annattuuu...not in a comical sense though).

Ya the day before my defense was very hectic in its own way with the preparations. We have a tradition here in the department to arrange some snacks if the defense is after noon or lunch if it is before noon. And as my defense is at 12 and because this will be the last chance to meet all my friends and let them taste some indian food and more over nanna is here and he would feel good sharing our food with my colleagues I thought of arranging Indian lunch. With the suggestion of my friend A to self cook the food instead of ordering from a restaurant....after a lot of discussion we stuck to this idea and so I had to do the grocery shopping and cook two of the dishes for the next day. By 7 in the evening leaving all the kitchen work to my very very helpful and loving friends and tamms I locked myself in the room for preparation coz by then I was dead tensed about the presentation. I started practicing the presentation slide by slide and the blood inside

 me was running in full speed that however hard I try I was swallowing the words and it took a while to calm down and concentrate and without having any time limit I practiced just the speech of my presentation. I also rehearsed my dress and checked if everything is fine. Had some dinner and went to bed. I couldn´t sleep that night. I closed my eyes and all the slides were revolving around in my mind. A small thought of the defense..what questions will be asked what if I cant answer kept me awake until I dont know and my eyes were wide open far ahead of the time I set the alarm to (deenne tension antaaremo appude telisindii...nannu nene nammalekapoyanu alarm mogina gantaki gaani legavanu kaani aa roju alarm moge ganta mundare melukuva vachesindi).

 Nanna also was awake in the next room by that time I suppose he was also concerned and felt the pressure of whats gonna happen to his daughter. Hmmmm

We got ready by 8 and arranging all the things to be 

carried to the department we hired a taxi by 9 and reached the department. I thought of doing one rehearsal of the presentation to check the

 duration of my speech. But before that I had to arrange all the cutlery, tables and basically everything needed for lunch in the corridor. With the help of my colleagues I managed to arrange the setting and A and tamms has arrived by then and took over the actual food arrangements. I then got time at 11 to practice the presentation so taking Alessia and Reinhard in to the seminar room I gave a talk which came for exactly 20 min. They suggested that I talk a bit slowly so that I can utilize the whole 25min, the actual time allowed.

One by one the examiners started coming, colleagues from the neighbouring department, indian students from the masters course, friends and co-workers from other working groups. Nearly 35 people have gathered quite unexpectedly. Seeing them my temperature fell down and my hands became chill cold. Meanwhile the most awaited moment for all except me has come. My supervisor Prof. Dr. Blohm gave a short introduction about the procedure of the defense and he also mentioned special welcome to nanna for coming all the way from India to be present on the occasion. I then stood up and started my presentation. I totally forgot what went on yesterday ot what happened today, all that I can see are my slides and a hall full of audiences (mostly very familiar faces). Dont know from where that energy has entered me...very unusually I spoke very slow and very clear and without any panicking...I couldnt believe myself....after the first two slides I calmed down totally and smoothly went through all the slides. It took 25 min to finish that and then the discussion started...first by the examination committee and then the audience. My second supervisor Prof. Heyser started with a very basic question and by answering it a little bit of confidence grew in me and slowly I could face all the questions that were asked. i dont know if the answer is right or not I was just saying out everything that came into my mind without any pause or hesitation. The last two questions asked by my postdoc were a bit tricky...I donot have much knowledge in phylogenetics and he asked something related...I was a bit disappointed by that but he asked me a second question and I had to think for a while to recollect the answer...but finally I gave him the right answer. Releaved was I that moment and totally wanted that the time is over for discussion. Luckily that turned out to be the last question  in the time frame and all of us except the examination committee were sent out of the hall. While coming out I passed by my Prof and he slwoly whispered in my ear "very good" (appudokaa ayomayam expression nenu...anandam bhayam kalisi)

Appudu start ayindi asalayina tension...dhak dhak dhaaad dhaad ani gunde kottukotam I came back to this world and started recollecting the answers I gave in the discussion. I felt terrible not knowing if I had conviced the jury or made any horrible mistakes. Everyone standing with me were just busy chatting and my ears were deaf for all that conversation. I couldn't stand anywhere otherthan the hall door and I waited for 15min over there my BP raising every second. My supervisor came out and just asked me to come in. I entered the room and all the other jury had very serious looks.....my BP fell down at once and then Prof started speaking saying that they had to make decisions on two points. One if they have to declare me as Doctor or not...I was pale and ready to faint.....he continued....we all agreed on yes (gunde pattesukuni hamma anukunna) and the second point is that what grade we have to give you.....I was dead by then as its very critical situation in my case.....(I got magna cum laude"very good" and cum laude "good" for my written thesis. So to make an average with the grade of the defense would be critical....a single mark from my defense can put me in good or very good).....Probably prof saw my condition of about to fall on the ground he held my hands and said we decided on Magna cum laude.......I felt dizzy and could nt bear that happiness.....

my prof held my hand very tight so that I donot fall down and everyone else started laughing by then and slowly started hugging me and congratulating one by one... Prof Annette Becker very sweetly said in my ears "you were very good" my happiness had no boundaries....tears rolled down and I was in air.....we came out and Prof announced it loud to the audience....nannaaa couldnt help the tears coming from his eyes too and one by one all of them congratulated and then I was given my PhD hat by my colleagues....lunch followed :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Yeh din kyaa aaye

Lage phool hasne dekho basanti basanti

hone lage mere sapne :):):):)

Baaaaaacccccckkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This has been really really loooooooooooooong hibernation. I am sure many might have thought that I won´t come back. Hmmmmm even I wasn´t sure that I will ever finish my thesis and will sit relaxedly again to write my musings. But finally I finished everything...not everything though ok 70% of the task and there is a big break now to complete the rest 30%. Ya I submitted my thesis :D:D:D:D YES YES YES unbelievable is n´t it. At least for me it is still like a dream even though its been 10 days. Ok I submitted my thesis my great grandh my big book what all I used to call it my PhD write up etc etc on the 10th of this month which by itself is an unforgettable day in many ways. This values 70% in my final evaluation and the rest 30% will be covered by the final defense or the final presentation which is gonna be on the 13th of August, the D Day.

Till then there is this big gap to come to this world again and look at the happenings around. Ya I was a bit late to come to this place coz many many things are happening in life these days. Actually there are so many stories to share here that I am totally confused what to put first and what next.

OK first let me start with saying thanks to all my friends here personally and to each one individually. THANK YOU sooooo much gals and guys for all the support, encouragement and wishes. It felt very nice and inspiring knowing that so many people are wishing me success and all your kind words boosted that extra energy in to me to walk forward and reach the edge.

Thank you thank you thank you soooo much Keerthi, Satish, NA, Sree and all others that posted comments on different posts of mine. I felt very very happy seeing all those. Thank you once again.

 The rest of the stories will follow this....the last days before submitting and the days after submission :):):):)

Hibernation.....

Hmmmm this is my 40th post....thats too fast...I expected to get to this hibernating point atleast after making half a century. Anyways gals and guys I suppose I have bored you enough sharing my ramblings of being a PhD student and these seem to be never ending for me right now. The thesis writing is getting on to my nerves and I am unable to think of anything else. I cant update this blog for a while from now even though I have so much to write.....my daily musings and many many stories....I miss reading my favourite blogs and writing comments too:(:(:(.....I just am unable to do it....I hope this will be understood and my very beloved visitors I promise to keep posting and start visiting others too once I come to a safe point in my thesis writing. Till then you have to bear this hibernation:):)....Thank you soo much...and please pray for me to survive this and come out of it very soon :):):)
Alvida!!!!

Contrast!!!!!

Its been a while I stepped into my blogsphere.....hmmmm.....been a bit occupied these days with mine and the students work.....I dropped in today as I had to share this and let out my agony somehow somewhere...

I came to the second most difficult part of my thesis...INTRODUCTION....god only knows how I am writing it...this is one part which I am not at all good at. Writing materials & methods I used in my work and the results I got... is very much easy as I know almost everything about my work...why I did the experiment..what happened in it..and what came out....how to interpret them. Though not easy as it sounds to keep it in words, I could write those parts uninterruptedly....somehow there was a continuous flow of ideas to put one after the other.....the order cameup involutarily

BUT....

now the Introduction....it should contain a combined compiled review of all the literature published in the field which in principle drove me to the aim of my thesis. The definition itself sounds very boring isn´t it :(..sadly it is the most important and unavoidable section...imagine my trauma in reading all those relevant papers (though I read a lot of them from the beginning of my work dated june 2005.....I had to read them again)....to check if they fit in to my story now.....and how to quote them, where and when along with the citations...baaaaap reyy it is hell lot of work.....the more papers you read the more crazy you go as all the different views keep dancing in your brain (alanti ilanti dance kaadu ekanga BREAK, ROCK, HIP HOP DANCE lu kalipi chestunnayi). This writing is taking a very very long time as getting a clear picture of the whole scenario you want to build towards your aim takes a while to figure out.....I hardly find words to fill up and completing a single sentence is taking ages......how am I gonna finish writing paragraphs and chapters...GAAWWDD...(antha gajibijeee gandara golanga undii)

When I make this complaint to my family or friends that I am facing difficulty finding words and building the topic.....they are just laughing at mee.....making fun of me that I write such long long really loooooong stories and posts in my blog and I am finding difficulty in filling my thesis....For a minute even I thought that was true....I try very hard to keep my posts short (many people already complained about my long posts)..... but the flow of thoughts is never ending here.....and its exactly the opposite with my thesis.....its difficult and I dont know how to write elaborately :(:(
I am very popular in my aquaintances about talking endlessly, writing big mails, big posts, narrating never ending stories (2 gantala cinemani 4 gantalu cheppagala ghanatha naake dakkutundi)....its an old habit, I cant keep anything short.....but whats happening with my thesis :(:(:( may be this is the difference between informal nonsensical writing and formal senseful scientific writing...I have to confide that I am no good at it...specially introduction part (I wish we have a scientific writer in the group as many of the institutes in the US do... specially for this purpose) Hats off to all those who can make scientific documents easily....(lab lo entha work ayina cheyyochu kaani raayatam baboooi chala kashtam)

See I could fill up all the above 1000s of words in hardly 15min....to write the same amount of introduction will take ages...hmmmm

Have been listening to the songs of Naram Garam and here are some nice lyrics...

"badi aarazu thi ke vo din bhi aaye
tere naam se ham kud ko bulaaye
tere naam se do jahaan mil gae hain
hamein raaston ki ...

hamein raaston ki zaroorath nahi hai"

Naa telugu maatalu :):):)

వంశీ, సతీష్ లు తెలుగులో రాయటం చూసి నేను కూడా ఎలా ఉంటుందో చూద్దామని ఈ చిన్న పోస్ట్ రాస్తున్నా. :) హిహిహిహిహి భలే ఉందిలే ఇలా ఒక్కొక్క అక్షరం కలుపుకుంటు రాస్తుంటె :) థ్యాంక్యు వంశీ ఈ సైట్ నాకు చెప్పినందుకు. ఆందరిని చూసి ఎదో అనుకున్నా కాని కొంచం కష్టంగానే ఉంది, బానే ఓపిక కావలీ, అలవటవ్వాలి అప్పుడు ఫాస్ట్ ఫాస్ట్ గా రాసేయొచ్చు :):)

ఇది రాస్తుంటే నాకో కోతి ఆలోచన వచ్చిందీ హిహిహి వియ్ ఆల్వేయ్స్ వ్రైట్ తెలుగు ఇన్ ఇంగ్లీష్ లెటెర్స్, వై డొంట్ వియ్ వ్రైట్ ఇంగ్లీష్ ఇన్ తెలుగు లెటెర్స్ :)...ఈవెన్ థిస్ లుక్స్ ఫైన్ ఇస్ న్´ట్ ఇట్ :):).... హట్స్ ఆఫ్ టు థోస్ హు ఇన్వెంటెడ్ థిస్.... (కోతికి కొబ్బరి చిప్ప దొరికితే ఇలానే ఉంటుంది మరి)

ఇక మీరు ఈ సుత్తి భరించలేక నన్ను తిట్టుకోటం మొదలెట్టే లోపు నేను ఆపెయ్యటం మంచిదని అనుకుంటున్నాను. అమ్మో నాకు ఆయాసం కూడా వచ్చింది...ఇక ఉంటాను...ముందు ముందు మంచిగా అలవాటు చేసుకుని రాయటానికి ప్రయత్నిస్తాను. టా టా.

Focus...Be yourself...Be natural!!!!

I was doubtful and had no idea about how to present the sequencing data in my thesis in a proper way. Thought for long time about different methods but still dint find any satisfactory one. So came up with this general curiosity and a hope to get some help by refering some of the earlier pHD thesis submitted in the department. Immediately logged into the university network and downloaded pdf files of about 5 recent thesis submitted by my ex-colleagues. Two of them are directly related to my work (not exactly my project but the technology used is the same) and the rest are completely different topics, but I wanted to check the approach of their writing. When I actually saw them they weren´t of much use as those are written in a cumulative way (atleast three publications from the work and a short summary of about 20 pages connecting and describing the publications).
Initially I also wanted to do that..write my thesis in cumulative way....life would have been much happier and simpler if that had worked out :(:(:( sadly I am not so lucky.....prof did not find any time to correct my publication as he is very busy and meanwhile I am running out of time.....so he asked me to drop the idea and write a normal thesis because of which I now ended up writing my great grandh (inka tala toka leni adbhuthamayina, ananthamayina, anirvachaneeyamayina, inkaa naake ardham kaani naa mahaaa grandhamu)

Anyways as I opened the downloaded files to just check the presentation of the results parts, out of irresistible attraction and curiosity I started going through the other parts of the thesis. And thats the mistake i did.....the more I read the other thesis the more i started feeling depressed, confused and completely low. Losing my confidence all kinds of doubts started arising in my mind...is my thesis good?? is my writing ok?? am I clear about my results?? did I present everything i know....or did I miss something??? is this the right way to present.....do i need to change the layout...change the order of the experiments...above all is the matter enough...do I need to shorten it or expand it...hmmmmm ayyyooooo I am so much confused......I spent almost a whole evening comparing my write up with the previous ones and getting more depressed with each section referred. Though a part of me was saying not to worry and let prof go through the matter and his remarks would be the ones I should work on, the other one was not ready to stop or atleast forget the comparison :(:(:(:(....

After many hours of internal fight about this.....refreshing my mind and clearing the data from the other thesis completely....asking a few essential questions about the actual aim of the thesis, what is a thesis....how natural and genuine the writing should be depending on personal vision and approach towards presentation of one´s own work....finally i could gain the strength to calm my mind and get back to my writing on my own in my own way.....I even had to get a new pair of glasses to energise and boost my thinking power :D:D:D(kalladdalu boledu telivitetalni gnananni istayani chinnappati nundi naako nammakam)....with a more studious and intellectual and nerdy look :D:D:D....just kidding..actually bought a pair of new glasses today in a sooper dooper offer (60€ worth glasses 10€ ke kottesaa sale offer loo).....

Anyways lesson learnt is not to make unnecessary comparisons and waste time (buying glasses also ;)).....just FOCUS and be yourself, be natural and write whatever you think and feel is right...once your heart is satisfied..you are gonna satisfy others hearts too... :):):)

I even feel the same with blogging....somedays when I browse lot and lot of blogs (for encouragement) with variety of issues and variety of interesting stories...I feel very confused and depressed about my posts....all kinds of questions arise in me about the content..will it interest anyone...what nonsense I am writing here...am I making myself clear blah blah blah....BUT when I post a genuinely inspired post of any kind any topic for my pleasure...it is definetely applauded :):):)

So at anytime anywhere anypoint of life it is always good to just Focus and be ourselves to get out the BEST of us!!!

Would like to post my current favourite song which I am listening now though it is no way related to the above post....it is from the movie JALSA(Pondalante victory, Poraatam compulsory)...Gallo telinattundee

I specially loved these beautiful lines

Urvasi voo nuvvu, rakshasi voo nuvvu, preyasi voo nuvvu naa kallaki
Oopiri voo nuvvu, oohala voo nuvvu, ooyala voo nuvvu naa manasuki

Toorupu voo nuvvu, vekuva voo nuvvu, suryudi voo nuvvu naa ningiki
Jaabili voo nuvvu, vennela voo nuvvu, taaraka voo nuvvu naa rathriki

Suhaana safar

My daily travel to and fro university and home is by a very beautiful, clean, safe, spacious, reliable, punctual, perfect and THE best BSAG (Bremen Straßenbahn AG) bus service. (Bremen lo bus lu chala punctual, fast mastaaru...time ayithe chalu ekke daaka kooda aagavu type :)). I spend around 20 mins everyday morning and evening in these excellently engineered picture perfect public service angels (I live in automobiles paradise called germany but ikkada car driving license chala expensive suma....prapanchamloo ekkada undavu intha viddooramayina fees lu).

I have been travelling in these services for the last 4 years so much so that I remember almost all the stops of all the lines...timetables of atleast 10 lines I travelled very extensively while living in different areas of the city....know the connecting lines byheart from many of the stops..hehhehe I also have a favourite seat for which I eagerly look and wish to be empty when I get into the bus or tram. Enough of introduction and advertisement to BSAG, my topic here is not that..

Everyday I get into the bus with my ipod plugged into my ears with my favourite collection queued up and I sit in my favourite seat if its free or an another window seat where I can be in my own world. Then with the songs in the background I switch in to my favourite past time, ......WATCHING PEOPLE :)...I love it!!! may it be just out of interest in observing different people, different dressing styles or in general just for time pass.

Variety of people travel with me everyday.....beautifully dressed sweet grandmas and grandpas going to the hospital or to the park, kids going to the schools, employees of the supermarkets, banks, university, young mothers with the baby prams going either to the kindergarten or to the hospital or just to stroll in the park nearby, and majority of the people are students from the nearby hostel as the bus goes to the university. Most of the co-passengers are the same and now I recognise them very well as we all take the same bus everyday (I mean sametime)...I know where they get in...which stop they get down...what they normally do during the journey...who they talk with...if they get in with partners or alone...do they have glasses....the jackets they normally wear, the bags they carry, the caps they wear, their music players etc etc :D:D:D. Different kind of activities are performed by different people.

Old people usually sit staring out of the window and concentrating on the passing stops, and if they have a company most of the time they are chatting rather complaining about their pets (cats or dogs....naaku chaala rojulaki kaani ardham kaaledu iddaru bammalu valla pillala (grand children) gurinchi kaadu pillula (cats) gurinchi maatladukuntunnarani).....Employees normally read news papers or novels, supermarket employees often start giving touch ups to their makeup....young mothers usually chat with their fellow mothers or just concentrate and forget the world watching the kid in the pram (they are the most adorable and the cutest of the passengers)...school kids are usually in groups so they are always blabbering on all random out of the blue topics which no one can understand or follow......then comes the students some read novels, some read text books, some keep correcting documents, some will be preparing for a presentation or an exam....some chat with their friends about any random issue, courses..exams...lectures...discotheks...pubs....movies..football...tv any thing...and majority of them have their music players hanging and plugged in their ears...

Among all these regular normal people, my special interest and attention is towards a class of people called Dreamers....their number is very low...atmost 5 or 6 among some 30-50 travelling at a time..these people just sit silently most of the times hugging their bags, or hand under chin and keep staring....no where...their eyes may be pointed out of the window or just inside the bus but their look is not there.....they are looking in to the infinity....deep in thoughts.... somewhere beyond this physical world, may be they are peeping into their own brains digging some past incidents or dreaming about something they wish to happen....the expression on their faces is mostly blank and puzzled....

very seldom some of them break down, eyes filled with water and tears rolling on the cheeks and they make a vain effort to control them..lest noticed by others....I feel so sad for them...(paapam entoo kashtam)...feel like going and hugging them, asking them whats wrong, hearing their problem and do something to make their heart feel light...these people stay in my memory for long time even though one of us get down the bus...

There are other kind of dreamers, the other side of the coin...the real dreamers....most of the time they behave as if they are all alone and all the others are just invisible..they nod their head a lot, blink a lot, scratch their nose a lot, adjust their hair a lot...their eyes always seem to say something, as if holding a very sweet thought, their lips tightly sealed or pressed under the teeth clearly controlling the bursting out laughter, a sweet naughty hesitant smile escaping the pressure once in a while, a hearty laugh coming out sometimes forgetting the surroundings....these people drag my attention a lot and I try to figure out whats going on inside them...did they find love, had nice moments with their partner, did someone praise their beauty, did they just win some lottery, are they gonna start a new job that day, did they finish their assignment....what is it??? or is it just that they had nice coffee in the morning...saw a funny poster on the way....remembered some scene from a movie they watched y´day.....some news they read in the morning....was appreciated at work...what is it???

whatever it may be I dont like to disturb them...I have no feeling to go and ask them...I am happy just watching them.....their smile brings an instant smile on my face too, looking at them makes me happy, thinking that they are having a beautiful thought in their brain makes me feel light, I forget all my issues for a while and all the surroundings start seeming beautiful and I carry this for long though I dont remember the person.....for the next few hours I am happy....hmmm...Life is Beautiful for atleast one in this big world....

"Zindagiii kaisi hai paheliii haiii

Kabhi to hasaayee

Kabhi ye rulayeee

Zindagiii"

Instances and observations like this often make me think who am I in this big world inhabited by some millions of unknown strange people where everyone has their own life, their own issues....Hmmm I hope all of us have such kind of moments atleast once in life :):):)....anyways wish everyone to BE HAPPY and HAVE FUN!!!!!!!!

Money making Vs. Intelligence

Had a small conversation during lunch today with my friend A and my colleague J. The conversation was started by J.....she enquired about the profession of A´s husband and expressed her amusement about him earning lot of money being a engineer. The conversation slowly moved to SAP professionals (Indian SAP´s in US) as A announced that not engineers but SAP s are the highest paid professionals in the world as they are very intelligent. I immediately shot at her saying that recieving high pay cheques and being SAP professionals has nothing to do with intelligence....as I always get very much irritated by this comment and by the common notion of us Indians relating intelligence to a particular profession and the salary drawn (as if intelligence is the sole property of only high salary recievers)...the conversation was diverted later but the issue is still lingering in my mind.

What´s the definition of intelligence??? Who are all the IIT graduates, IIM graduates, world renowed scientists, talented medical professionals, 24X7 hrs round the clock working science researchers, brain moulding professors and teachers, literature stalwarts, basic engineering professionals, automation engineers, architects, electronics engineers, agriculture researchers, space researchers, economists, IAS and other civil services stand outs.......who are all these people....are they not called intelligents?????? NO ofcourse not....they are not intelligent because they dont draw some 100k US dollars per year as an SAP consultant in US...

I do respect real SAP consultants (here I mean real professionals who had their basic education in this field and who really strived hard putting brain into it out of sheer enthusiasm and interest and love for that particular tool)...its a very wonderful amazing software developed by a very renowed team for the efficient management of any kind of firm.....and it does justify and their brains are really worth paying huge salaries as the turnover profit of the software is also huge....I definetely consider those people intelligent and I bow down for their brains....BUT then

Who are all these so called intelligent desi people drawing heavy salary cheques from very big labelled companies and calling themselves SAP consultants...who are they???? the so called H1B visa holders, thousands of them migrating to US every year designating themselves as SAP consultants.....are they real SAP professionals, did they get their basic education in SAP, are they really passionate about the software....above all how many of these SAP professionals know the exact elaboration of the acronym S A P????...what is their work profile????..how are they taken for the jobs????...why are they paid such huge amounts???? are my never answered doubts particularly seeing my very average minded friends graduating in some kind of basic biology and engineering subject.....and then taking a intensive crash SAP course for 6 weeks in some institute in hyderabad....getting the H1B visa filing some 10 years of fake experience in the field...fly to US and the next month proudly informing all his aquaintances that he is working in Hi-Fi company and drawing 100k US dollars per year.....he suddenly becomes intelligent in the whole circle....people converse about him and refer him as intelligent though you actually know him and his talents very well since childhood.....How did he become intelligent over night??? answer is....his salary made him intelligent??

No wonder if an illiterate who doesnt know anything about different professions, the essence of them and the passion involved in taking up the subject, hardship involved in excelling in the field talks this way as he only sees the outcome, the salary....BUT why we educated people talk like this.....why are we underrating other professions, why are we degrading our own fields and passions as we dont get much salary in this....when are we gonna change and start appreciating the real talent and recognise the real passion and intelligence in other fields....

dragged away with the high demand flow, bagging the oppurtunity in the bloom, grasping anything that comes your way in the struggle for existence surely will earn you good bank balance and if you are content with that, boasting about your salary, assets you have earned in India, your car, your house...congrats you are intelligent and you are a member of the so called intelligent people´s club...

HOW LONG WE ARE GONNA BE RECOGNISED BY OUR BANK BALANCE???? WHEN IS THIS GONNA CHANGE??? WHEN WILL OUR REAL TALENTS BE APPRECIATED???

I am ofcourse happy that many of the Indians are making good life because of all this..whatever it may be they are getting settled well, having good happy rich lives...BUT please dont call that intelligence.....please not the real educated community atleast....please dont get dragged away....My heart wept silently when a very passionate automation engineering graduate, who worked for the world renowed TATA motors applied for H1B with a fake 6 yrs SAP work experience...only to go to the USA and have huge bank balance (his wife thought that his salary is low).......a university gold medalist biotechnology graduate shifted to software as her USA husband wants more money.....one of my cousins a management passionate double degree (BTech(Electronics & communications) MBA (finance)) graduate.....Indian hot cake....applied for H1B with fake work experience as the salary in India was not enough....many more stories of this kind and A´s comment today during lunch provoked me to write this post...

P.S: This is not written to offend the feelings of any one personally...I am sorry if I did....its just my heart´s agony as why is the real intelligence of India disregarded or unnoticed...and a small attempt to prevent atleast few from getting flooded in the flow.

Dear A you are a very intelligent and talented agriculture scientist...dont underrate yourself...your knowledge is much more worth than just money...

"Ye pal hai wahi, jis mein hai chhupi
Koyi ek sadi, saari zindagi
Tu na poochh raaste mein kaahe
Aaye hain is tarha do raahein
Tu hi toh hai raah jo sujhaaye
Tu hi toh hai ab jo ye bataaye
Chaahe toh kis disha mein jaaye wahi des
Ye jo des hai tera, swades hai tera, tujhe hai pukaara
Ye woh bandhan hai jo kabhi toot nahin sakta"

Cut off!!! (voip connections suck)

Past four days had been Easter holidays and I was literally cut off from the external world....I did not update my blog....I did not check my regular sites.....I did not read any news.....I dint even check my mails properly as I normally do....god only knows the reason...may be sometimes you just feel like getting away from the routine and do something different....
But important mention here is that I was also cut off from phone calls to and fro to India and this is not something I wanted...It was so frustrating and I was irritated so much with the net based VoiP calling service that I am writing this post to warn all the people who are using this service.

I shifted to VOIP calling from the calling cards mode about two year ago (after all my friends certified that its a very cheap and the best service, kathi chaku pandaga cheyyochu lanti padaalu kooda vaadarulee).....all the voip services are provided by a company called Betamaxx.....the shifting occured as it was quite cheap to call to India (with a initial deposit of 10 € , 5cent per min was very cheap in those days) and also very convenient for our family to call us directly from the computer when ever they feel like (actually its a free call to germany if you have a installed application with a broadband connection). This service started with a single application (voipbuster) which was quite good and within a couple of months a new one was started (voipcheap) with cheaper tariff......so I opened an account even there buying credit.....this did not end and new applications were launched periodically with very different offers and different kind of cheaper rates.....Now as I wanted to use the service to its best...I opened an account in every new cheaper application with 10€ credit, instead of refilling the empty credit of the previous one.....
This way I created atleast 6 or 7 accounts in different applications from the same company. I used up the credit and the free days in most of them and in the past few months I had three very active applications.(voipcheap, justvoip, nonoh). Initially there was a problem with the username....i was short of names (different applications doesnt accept the same username even though they belong to the same company)...And slowly a new condition was put forward that one cant use the same payment mode for different applications (though all the money however paid goes into the same account...vaadi badhentoo ardham kaadu asalu)...what does he expect??....if we get an account, we have to stick to it and keep on putting our money into it even though we see an another cheaper one...How nonsensical is that??? (then why should they release so many applications??? I dont understand their strategy at all....cheap ani release cheyyatam enduku...kaani account kudaradu anatam enduku....anni mail accounts, usernames, payment methods evariki untaayi)

But having atleast three options......I finally ended up with three accounts in three different applications with three different kinds of payment (Bank transfer, Paypal, Credit card)...(manaki kakkurthi kadaa cheap calling system edante akkada vaalipotamee...bellam meeda eegallaga :D)
Did´nt predict the "In front crocodile festival"......Life was happy with early morning wakeup calls, daily evening blabbers with amma and nanna and anytime call to India......until last friday when suddenly all the three accounts froze and stopped connecting...they are dead there was no movement even after long trials...three accounts of mine and three of tamms all are gone with the credits added into them....we were shocked and dint know what to do......later one of our friends J informed that he experienced the same with his accounts and he did not get any asisstance or remittance from the customer service.

I couldnt even open a new account as I used up all the possible payment methods (I wonder...isn´t this a loss to the provider..if he restricts to one payment mode for one application???? naa lanti privileged customer ni pogottukuntunnadu)....anyhow even if he allows and I create a new one there is no guarantee that it wont be closed......hmmm i couldnt even get back to calling cards as its been really really long since I used them....soo spent the whole holiday with no elaborate calls from and to India...:(....

VOIP users beware...accounts can be closed any minute without any notice....

Apart from that weekend was quite nice....
A and J from Nurnberg came visiting us for the holidays and donno how time rolled off with lots of fun and loads of food......its true I did nothing in the holidays except relaxing and enjoying the leisure to its best....(yaa managed to do some thesis writing though...on saturday when the guys had their day out).
To my great pleasure I received very nice message in the fortune cookies we had yesterday in the chinese restaurant after lunch....I opened two of them and they say
"YOU ARE ON YOUR TRACK TO STARTING SOMETHING NEW"
"GRASP OPPURTUNITIES TO CREATE FUTURE"
hehehe...Actually all of us got nice messages.....(otherwise the restaurant will not get the bills paid..was A´s comment :))...MAY BE!!....but they made me really happy and boosted some energy into me to stay focussed....

With that I wish everyone a very nice week ahead!!!!!!!!

Kalyanam, kamaneeyam....jeevitham!!!!!!!

Bharath Matrimony.com(marriages are forever)!!!....this is not a kind of marketing or advertisement to this site...but just have been hearing about this a lot these days and couldnt resist from sharing my amusement here. The official website says that it is already 10 years old :O:O:O....I suppose all of you know about this very well...I dont....or may be I dint see any live examples of people using this....uhhhh where am I???? Am I still living in this world??? How come I never researched in to this..wierd :( Hmmmm!!!!!...its not completely true..actually I heard that such a site exists..from the adds in the TV and newspapers ofcourse but I obviously turned a deaf ear for all that(adds choosthe migatha channels updating elaguuu :):):)...I have very good selective hearing capacity....TV punyamaa ani... hehehe :))
I first heard about this last year when a friend of mine in US told that one of his very good friends adviced him to register in this site.....(geethopadesam (big S to small S)...eerojullo edo oka site to register kakunte pelli kaaduroooi)...small S horrified with the warning immediately got a username in the site....and within 15 days (trial period where he doesnt have to pay anything :)....free time lo ne bumper offer kottesaa...are his words) he found a very nice girl...started chatting with her and later talking...in about a month...after both of them decided that they can proceed further, informed the same to their respective parents....and both the parents made an appointment, met each other..talked...and pipi piiii dumm dumm dum...engagement and marriage took place in no time...and now they are in US newly married happy couple...I was surprised and very amused when he narrated all this to me....couldnt believe that such things are happening...
After few months heard almost similar story from one of my old friends about her cousin....my friend was very excited to tell me the story that her cousin found her soulmate through this site and now she is very happily married and settled :D:D:D...I was amazed...
And yesterday I recieved offline messages from K (one of my father´s friends daughter...currently working in the USA) that she is gonna get married in april and was asking if I will be there in India at that time (naakanta bhagyamaaa...enni pellillu miss ayyanoo ilaaga :()....already knowing that uncle is looking for a good alliance for her I casually asked her later how her father found the guy....to my great astonishment she said......
K: I found him in Bharath matrimony akka....
me: Whhaatttt????
K: ya I updated my profile in the site and send it to amma and nanna (this is quite shocking to me specially knowing her parents very well)
me: aaaaa
K: I was browsing through and found this boy´s profile very interesting....I immediately sent it to nanna and he marked interested in the boy´s profile...
me: ooooook :O:O:O
K: the boy called me up as he is also in US....we talked for few days and later we fixed a date to meet up...
me: avvunnaaa :) tarvataa....
K: he came up to my place....and we talked everything openly and wanted to decide for ourselves before taking this to the parents....
me: oook
K: we did this couple of times and later I said my consent and he also to his parents....amma and nanna talked with his parents....went to meet them at their place and soo here we are planning and packing baggage to go to India..
me: GREAT!!!!

Well this post may sound very silly and stupid to most of you...but believe me I am really surprised , amused, astonished with all this.....may be its been too long I stayed away from home and unable to realize the fact that India is developing at a very fast pace.....Its wonderful to hear all these stories from very familiar and dear people......they all had the same tone of happiness and satisfaction of both choosing their partners all by themselves and also to the contentment of their parents....isn´t this amazing...both parents and the young eligible guys and girls utilizing the technology for a very happy reason where at the end of the day all are satisfied :D:D:D Hmmm in a way this is what technology is meant to be.....for the comfort and happiness of humankind...isn´t it ;)......hmmm!!! (technology tho ppaatu parigettatam ante ide :))

P.S: I supose I can recieve a good sum as remuneration if I post this in the BM site...hehhehehe....or may be they will just tear it down and put it into trash saying naaahhh old stuff....hammo vaddulle.....

After the sad demise of soggadu Sobhan babu gaaru....I remembered this very beautiful song picturised on him in the movie Rajkumar...(this is one of my all time favourites)...past two days I have been playing this continuously....and now it is also here...

"Janaki kalaganaledu raamuni sati kagalanani eenaadu
Raamudu anukoledu janaki pati kagalanani aanadu
aanadu evaru anukonidi
eenadu manaku nijamayinadi
aa raamayanam mana jeevana paarayanam"

Yeh Din Kyaa Aayee....

"You had a great day yesterday, and you'll have a great day again, today! You are in the midst of a wonderfully happy phase, when even the grouchiest of people will cause you to giggle and smile. There's just no telling where all of this good energy has come from, but why question it? Embrace the good vibes. Have fun with them -- and have fun with that certain new someone in your life who is always so very good at making your already bright smile even brighter."

Thats my horoscope for today....call me crazy but the first thing I do every morning after coming to work is check my horoscope in yahoo :)....not that I believe in it....but many a times I found it so perfectly reflecting my mood and matching my condition (as the above one for today) that I began reading it everyday.... started feeling happy and related (as if someone is sitting over there observing me, reading my mind and stating my exact thoughts....what they are and how I like them to be)......it slowly turned into a habit and now it almost became a daily morning ritual :)...

As the above words say everything....the week so far has been fruitful satisfying and happy in its own way. I started working on my thesis again and in a much convinced way....I am finally working with LaTeX full-fledged (made it work even on my macbook:)) yesterday night was the happiest moment when I completed making a LaTeX document of one full section without any errors....it kind of feels good learning the commands....writing the codes...compiling them....checking the errors....debugging....and finally the output...there is nothing like it....its so beautiful (I now understand the contentment of software engineers when their codes finally workout)...initially i thought writing in Latex will waste my time as I have to learn all commands and there is no compulsion of it...i can write in MS-word too.....but I wanted to try it out....when I saw the first output....it completely flattered me to continue and now I am proud that I could make it...:):):)

Yesterday night we had a nice special feast with friends and the Kheema matar i made was praised by everyone (which is quite unusual).....R (the student) managed to work on his own this week...he finished his first round of whole experiment all alone and he managed it really well....though he calls me in my office every 15min....and I have to make some runs and rounds into the lab by his calls.....I am happy that he is doing the work well and the rounds are soothing to my eyes as they can see something other than bright computer screen....and above all the runs are ungluing me from my chair and I may become thin (lot of exercise....aaahhaa...thought it self is making me giggle :D).....

So right now embracing the good vibes as my horoscope says....except the certain new someone in my life...mentioned in the last line (nothing like that happened yet).....and having fun with the rain, clouds, snow, hail storms, thunder storms, cold breeze, clear sky, sunshine, heat, wind....yaa thats true all kinds of weather on the same day....(thats how Bremen is..)....:D:D:D adios....Wish Life is Beautiful for everyone....:)

The smiley sticker on my office computer says: Smiling....Thanks to you!!!

"Yeh din kyaa aaye...lage phool hasne...
dekho basanti basanti..hone lage mere sapne..

Sone jaisi ho rahi hain har subah meri...
Lage har saanjh ab gulaal se bhari...
Chalne lagi mehki huyi pawan jhoom ke....
aachal tera jhoom ke
Yeh din kya aaye lage phool hasne"

Procrastination at its BEST

Past two days I was doing everything except thesis writing...it was as if I completely forgot about it.....friday night tired by the day slept early thinking of waking up soon and writing (I slept very hard that night...was awake with closed eyes for long time....there was a fight within....one of me urging to get up and write as I was awake...and the other forcing me to sleep and get rest) ...saturday morning ofcourse I wokeup early but didn´t have any mood for writing....to warm up checked all the mails and all the blogs for updates....its almost noon by then....postponed the idea of writing for after lunch...had lunch...feeling very drowsy my mind wasnt ready for any kind of thinking.....started reading the new books I got from India talloofying the writing to the evening....its almost evening and remembered the weekly grocery shopping....so went shopping moving the writing to night slot......met couple of friends in the market and was there till night...came back, had dinner and then had a great idea of taking pictures and writing a post in my blog before thesis writing....after the post is ready I went through it a hundred times....being very much inclined for story reading....I hit the sack with the book deciding to write afresh early sunday morning and not waste any time....
Sunday morning´s alarm at 6.00am went snoozing for some hundred times and I wokeup only with the arrival of the big luggage from India....spent the next hours arranging the things...had a great heavy lunch resulting in a very sound afternoon nap.....lazily wokeup in the evening and obviously I didnt even think or have a chance of postponing as all the senses and powers inside me went numb, hated, abused, embarrassed, ashamed and the peak of procrastination was reached when I wanted to find solace in watching a movie before sleep to get refreshed for a new week ahead. :(:(:( IAM SICK!!!!
The tension is growing on me right now, my senses are feeling restless, my nerves are shaking vigorously at the idea of the spent weekend, the blood pressure is raising rapidly at the thought of Prof´s question "HOW FAR HAVE YOU COME?", blood vessels in the brain are at the verge of exploding thinking about the two main chapters I still have to complete.
HOW DID I DO THIS??? HOW COULD I DO THIS??? WHY EVERYTHING ELSE ATTRACTS ME EXCEPT WRITING????
Please help me with ideas to get over this :(:(:(

P.S: I went through my previous weekend posts and they are not any different...all of them are filled with lazyness and procrastination...I am starting to hate weekends...I dont want any of them anymore :X:X:X:X

Anmol Ratan

Yaaa tamms came back from India y´day and along with him also were coming lots n lots of pickles, sweets, snacks....what not...above all amma´s very own chepala pulusu (amma took all the pain in preparing it and also got it packed well that it wont get spoiled during the journey)....:D:D:D.....I had been very eagerly waiting for all that and more enthusiastically for the surprises that nanna said he was sending for me....

Unfortunately tamms main luggage did not reach Germany in his flight...it got stuck in Dubai and the baggage claim informed that it would be sent to us either today or tomorrow early in the morning...I seriously hope that the curry is fine and eatable coz its sent with so much of love and i wont be able to throw it with my hands.:(
But my surprises were in the cabin luggage and so I got them immediately. Guess what they are??? They are never ending pleasures and long living treasures....yaaa I have got these three great books...those that I wanted to read since long time....
Sri sri´s Mahaprastanam though I read it when I was in school...dint understand much of it...so have to see how much I can do right now.
Being a great fan of all Bapu and Ramana creations...I asked for Radhagopalam short story and nanna being the greatestesteesssttt fan of the duo sent me the whole Saahiti Sarvasvam II :):)(Radhagopalam is a small chapter in that volume).
And Vamsi´s Maa pasalapudi Kathalu is something which I dint hear about before (have a hazy memory of reading his stories in Swathi vaarapatrika)....a glance at the cover was irresistible enough to turn the pages immediately and in a while I landed in a place with lush green moist rice fields, chirping birds, divine sweet n flooding godavari waters, innocent beauty of village life, pure untouched nature and lively lives of andhra country side....all this and much more with Bapu´s illustrations...it was hard to close it :):)(Will come up with more details once I finish reading).

Apart from all this the most important and the most valuable priceless and precious ANMOL RATAN I recieved with this treasure are these signatures from nanna....totally totally spellbound and moved, touched and mesmerized....THANKS is a small word to describe my happiness...I wouldnt say that...LOVE YOU LOADS!!!!!!(Nanna+Amma+Nanamma)

P.S: Click on the images for larger view

Welcome to the world of PhDs

Keerthi´s comment (a simple alternative to my complex war against cold) in my previous post reminded me a funny story that happened sometime ago in august 2005.
Those are the early days of my PhD. I share the office (so called luxurious PhD students room...as we can drink coffee and eat chocolates sitting in our place...away from the lab:D:D:D) with three more..you guessed it right...PhD students :):). Anyways on one fine day I had an appointment to see a flat at around 4´o clock in the afternoon. I got late by 10 min stuck in the lab...hurriedly packed and rushed to the tram stop..got into the first one....searched for my handy to call P who will be waiting for me to accompany me to the flat. Searched my jacket also... AYYILAA :O:O:O I left it on the office table. Hmmm...I got down at the stop, P just shot at me "Where is your handy????? I gave some million rings to it" eee eerrr I forgot in the office....hesitant hehehehehe....

Next day I reached office early, looked for my handy immediately...oh no!!! its not there on the table....I looked around the room...its not there :(:(:(..after a while when Iam searching the cupboards S came in followed by R (very techie very talented intelligent colleagues of mine)

me: guys did you see my handy...I left it here y´day
S and R together: Hmm yaa (ya we know kind of frowny head nod)...did you look under your table????
me: Whattt....under the table??? Hmm noo!!!! I looked down and saw a big thermacoal box
N came in meanwhile...three of them looking at me and said...take it out...its there...inside..me puzzled, hesitant surprised what not put the box on the table and opened it.....and

Its full of small thermacoal packing pieces....removed some from the top..nothing seen.....emptied almost half of the box......found a couple of air filled plastic bags...removed them.....there is a folded kitchen cloth napkin....unfolded it...there are a dozen of layered green paper tissues....removed them....there is a small card board box....opened it....there is a bubble wrap.....moved it aside and finally therrreeee it is MY HANDY all packed with a tape in a plastic cover....sitting there burried in the bed of thermacoal chips......

Guess why???? previous day my handy was ringing loud...(P´s call, its not set to silent)...S and N in the room heard it for 5 min.....its still ringing...couldnt bear the sound....S put it in my desk drawer...its still ringing...still loud....heard it for 5 more mins and it was unbearable...they wanted to avoid that sound....N went into the lab..consulted R on the issue...and there they go studying the mechanics of sound proofing....N brought the box with chips....R brought the rest of the layers....S packed it and kept it in....the box was left under the table to eradicate the faint sound still heard if it is on the table...(my then existing saneness wondered..why dint they switch it off or answered it once????)...missed taking a picture of that :):):)...

WELCOME TO OUR CRAZY WORLD OF PhD!!!!!!

Arre Diwanoo, Humein Pehchanoo
Kaha Se aaye, hum hain kaun
Hum hai kaun, hum hai kaaaaun????
PHD PHD PHD PHD
Hum Hain Hum Hain Hum Hain Pagal Hai Diwanoo
(Psychologically Heavily Distressed)

kitchch kitchch

Saturday night around 10´o clock...sitting in my closed airtight den ....Haatchchiii Haatchchiii!!!!....mmmm haaa Haaaaaaaaattchchii!!!!.....whats happening?? it doesn´t feel like a normal closed room sneeze....anyways (kebaab mein haddi samazhke) continued crooning with some more hurdles at different wavelengths and velocities (donno the unit for a sneeze :D) at intervals of 5mins until after an hour when I realized my jarred voice turning more unbearable. I calmed down for a minute to feel the difference and there it is....my throat is a bit itchi, rugged and scratchy.....a sudden flash and an alarm in my brain...I sensed the enemies .....the viruses....they seem to be on an attack.....should I start a war.....hmmm may be its just my presumption.....warriors dont fight at night......I decided to wait till the dawn speculating the probable reasons (if it is the attack of the viruses)....the brief walk in cold breeze to the market??? just some random exposure to aerosols flying around in the corridors??? some dust culprits from the bin providing hostage to the viruses and help them build secret army to attack????

The cruel ruthless decieving viruses have no war ethics..(papam ani vadilesthe rathri time lo donga debba teesaayi :X)...by dawn they are spread all around....they occupied the nose and throat territories and blocked them.....the frequency of the sneezes increased...me being a nonviolent soul....just neglected it after consulting the able minister Wikipedia who said...

"there is no historical proof that any known medical composition could directly defeat these viruses...they are self destructive and will completely subside in a week.....so is the famous saying written about them "Common cold resolves in 7 days without medicine and in one week with medicine"....they turn violent in the 2nd 3rd and 4th days...multiply in huge numbers causing blockages in the breath, temperature rise, headache, fatigue, cough and loss of apetite......only way to bear this is stay in the den...blow out the blockages, drink lot of ginger/peppermint tea and liquids"....hmmm

Following the expert advices I stayed calm till monday morning......the enemies seemed to have multiplied in millions over night...my voice turned baritonal and the nose completely blocked..Being overly confident on my stamina and not ready to pay the expenses of a working day because of these petty nonsensical enemies...I am a warrior....So there I go out of my den equipped with all the relaxants (paper tissues, tea bags, peppermints) to be fit to squeeze my master student prey with a new technique...an additional dose of ginger tea and generous amounts of pepper in the lunch saved me till 4´o clock....then the enemies reraised, started attacking....I couldnt work....I was furious, angry and slowly my patience levels started depriving and when they crossed the limit I decided to go back to the den to deal with them....my patience was treated as inability....come on YOU minute creatures.....You wanna fight....lets do it....I turned merciless and brutal...

Planning a strategy I immediately put on a big flask of water to boil.....added a big spoon of vicks to the steaming water and a pinch of turmeric for the extra disinfection......a bit of eucalyptus oil to work on the head....and there you go lets see who wins......steam was concentrated covered by the blanket.....heavy vapors breathed in to burn away and destroy for about 10min.....proud and satisfied...regained clear nose and throat....energised by the victory I focussed on the probable sites of origin...aerated the den for clean air and vaccumed the carpet for hidden colonies......showed the trash its destiny for providing hostage.....
To show the hidden viruses the real fun of war...prepared a very spicy pepper rasam......hot and fuming....and drank a big glass of it...there you goo.....all the left over enemies were traced and washed away...took an additional dose of peppermint after that......

My vengeant soul still not satisfied wanted to destroy all of them from their roots...leaving no chance of minute rebirth.....prepared another batch of steaming water with an extra large amount of vicks, turmeric....finally coming to the last part of my master strategy rubbed a huge amount of vicks vapourab on the nose and the throat...covered completely with a thick blanket ...I slept off.....Vicks has managed the rest of the task...I sweated and the timid, frightened, horrified enemies fled away for their life in the silent darkness of the night as they entered.....

I wokeup to a fresh new dawn today in my free clean happy kingdom.....no traces of enemies seen in the far distances (they might have fled to the MARS in horror)......pride of victory filling my nerves with new energy......I got ready and left my den (without any precaution accompaniments) HEHEHEHHAHAHHAHAHA


IAM A WARRIOR!!!!! VICTORY IS MINE!!! VIRUSES OUT THERE...TRY YOUR GUTS....FIGHT ME IF YOU ARE FOND OF HALF LIFE UNEXPECTED DEATH!!!!

Hence the saying rewritten "Common cold resolves in 7 days with/without medicine and in just 1 day with Srujana´s master strategy"

Statutory warning: the strategy mentioned above is purely for personal use...not to be tried by sensitive people and specially kids.

panga na lo panga na lo mujhse panga na lo koi
kyun ki abb main yuun badal gaya hoon
nahi main deewaana bana hoon mastaana
ab jamaane ko dikhaana hai ki main hoon cheej kya
kya main kal tak tha o yaaro, aaj kya main ban gaya
mujhse panga, panga panga na lo koi 

Joy of life :D:D:D

All the wealth in this world is not worth these cutest expressions....those sparkling crystal eyes...that innocent smile....those chubby little cheeks, hands and feet...one glance will take you to a state of ultimate happiness and peace.....Gawwd who can turn their heads from this bundle of joy...
the beauty of the entire universe on one side and the cuteness of a baby on the other....the latter is always the heavier :D:D:D

Take a look you will forget this world :):):)...Thanks ARUN for sharing this :)


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Yeh To Hain Sardi Mein Dhoop Ki Kirane
Utarein Jo Aangan Ko Sunhera Sa Karne
Mann Ke Aandheron Ko Roshan Sa Kar Dein
Thithurti Hatheli Ki Rangat Badal Dein
Kho na jaaye ye Taare Zameen Par

House Arrested- Self imposed!!!!!!!

Ya thats what I literally did to myself this weekend. Dont know how I spent the two days just sitting in one room (except for a very brief visit to the nearby market to return something)....gazing at the laptop (which wasnt shut down for almost 60 hours now) either sitting on the chair or lying on the bed....the window curtain is closed....the door is closed....so are all my senses :(:(:( yaa I dont know how the climate was outside in the last two days...if it rained or it was cold or sunny.....absolutely no idea.

Why did I do this?? No idea...it just happened and I realize it only now when I get the thought that the weekend is over :(....it started and it ended like a flash....dint know how the time had passed....hmmm most of the weekends these days are like this...gone are those days when the whole saturday is spent just walking around the city centre or the supermalls window shopping, looking for offers in absolutely everything (carefree, bindaazzz :):).).....and lastly getting home huge grocery bags (maaku okka week ki samanulu kaaani oka average family ki one month easy ga saripotundi aa food....yaa thats what we are..bakasuraaas)....and sundays used to be fun days of waking up late...cook some special meal....and enjoy it with a good movie....absolute rest and all refreshed and energised for the new week to start.

Compared to those days I get less tired now doing nothing....I mean no walking, no shopping, no cooking, no watching movies...in principle I should feel very fresh but NO!!! I am exhausted, stressed, wornout and feeling really crazy seeing these four walls for the last two days...:(:(:(...I am sleeping but my brain still seems to be tired, my nerves are tired, my blood circulation got stagnant...my legs and hands seems to have paralyzed....(ekkuva panukunte ide jarugutundi anukondii :):):)...kaani adi kaadu ikkada karanam)...dont know what is happening...I am not ready for tomorrow...I need rest...real rest....I want to make my brain completely blank and just stay clam...is that possible????

Anyways apart from all that crazyness going on in a part of me...I almost finished writing my results....I have to say wooooooowww what a section to write...its the easiest one so far....and the fastest in filling the pages....there are so many graphs and tables to fill in....aahhaa I filled up about 30 pages on saturday in absolutely no time...hheheeheh.....yaa its as easy as put in your diagram and just explain what you see..thats it....and the explanation in most of the experiments is the same as they are the similar tests conducted with different samples....aint that easy??? :):):)....but the real fun tho abhi shuru honee valaa hai beta.....to start with the introduction and the discussion parts....iam going numb with the mere thought of them...absolutely have no idea how to compile them...hmmm for now will rest and start afresh tomorrow....hope I get some ideas in my wierd dreams :):):) along with my blowing nose...ya I have caught bad cold today...

donno how and why :(...may be the flu viruses are in full josh enjoying their weekend....added to the very exciting ambience of my room for the last two days are now a pile of used paper tissues, peppermint tea bags and tea cup and spoons all around....a look around is making me sick. (its yaaacckkkyyy)...my head is all blocked with both the flu and you know what...so for now I switch off the lights and lay down as a blind cat and will look after this kacharaa tomorrow...:) alvida..khuda haafiz...good night!!!

I was able to feel alive for the last two days with these lively posters in my room (Caption on red rose poster: PASSION - Nothing in the world has ever been accomplished without passion) and the most melodious music from the Maestro. (not mentioning the horriblly loud sing along of my neighbour with some jamba gamba music....I resisted very hard from smashing my head)...Nenu taggutaanaa nenu naa songs head phones pettukuni vinnanuu...hehhehhehe

Here is one of the Maestro´s evergreen songs from Vamsi´s Chettukinda pleader :)

Neeru gari paaripoku
Neerasaana jaaripoku
Leee melukoo
Maarumoola daagipoku
Pirikimandu taagaboku
Lee melukoo
Endukee bhayam andukoo jayam..

PASSION poster courtesy: It was very kindly and generously donated by dear budugu...it was a great trauma for him to part with it.. but he is so kind and chethiki emuka leni type daata :):):) to give it to me and let me put it in my room...anukuntunnaraa.....I fought a spartan war to snatch it from him :):):)

Once upon a time life was beautiful like this :):):) Kaaniii ippuduu :(:(:(:(

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Busy bee....

"Mail rayali rayali ani postpone chesthuu rojuki vanda sarlu gurthu chestukuntaa ninnu (S ki mail raayali raayali ani).....ade okasari rasesthe hammayya pani ayipoindi anukuni inka vadilestha malli reply vachevaraku.....so raayaka pothe choodu you are always in my thoughts dear every day every minute" .......thats the most stupidest reasoning I gave to my best friend some time ago when I got scolded for being lazy and not writing regular mails to her....:D:D:D (the more I postpone writing to you the more I have you in my thoughts ;))

Now I suppose I have to say that to my blog also....specially after making a gala post of unveiling, boasting about writing almost every day......hmm I realize that its not so easy....I could hardly write anything this week...though I think of it every minute....a part of my brain got attached to this blog now and is keeping on pinching me to write :):):)

There is an another big work I am concerned about and for which I cant give this reasoning.....thats my thesis report....thats inexcusable...I dint put even a single word in my report in the last three days....except some LaTeX format play arounds and preparing the references chapter (these doesnt need much brain)......its not lazyness anymore....I dont have time...24 hours is not just enough...I am getting tired, exhausted, shattered, broken by evening everyday that I dont have any energy left for thinking and writing...so I am doing references and other small things after going home...

Supervising a master thesis student is not at all easy and seems like an adventure at this stage (naaku avasramaa idantha???)....specially if he doesnt have any previous experience in the techniques and have to teach him from the scratch...its gonna take hell lot of time....R is a smart student...he is grasping them fast but there is so much to learn that I cant avoid the feeling....it would have been better if he had done these atleast once in his previous work....so we had to do elaborate theory, protocol discussions before actually going into the lab (not metioning all the hell lot of paper work for the administration).....and added to all this the condition in the lab.....is a havoc....(all the powers in the world have united to test my patience)..I stopped working in the lab about a month ago and what I see is all my things are misplaced, used and scattered all over the lab....(though personally unorganized....I am one freak in the lab...I need all my stuff untouched and right at the place on the bench during work...I hate running around the lab in the middle of an experiment looking for even a small parafilm because it is taken by someone and left somewhere in the other rooms :X:X:X:X).....it took few hectic hours to bring back all the stuff to its place.....

So with all this we started off the real experiments yesterday and for now its going on well...he got good results at the end of the day......a great relief to me :):):)

R is.....wierd as he asked me if I and the people in AP. India know Sachin tendulkar (R is from Pune, India)..........
One interesting observation....he is all tensed and his hands are shivering when ever I stand beside him looking over his experiment..he takes the wrong pipettes...spills the alcohol, drops down the lids...tears his gloves...smashes the cooler door...ooofff....."R" cool it!!!!....am I so scary??? or am I sounding very strict and stubborn (eeee rrrrr like a german nazi :):):)).....hehehe no noo actually he is very much tensed as this is the first time he is doing these experiments and he is a kind of very enthusiastic and very aggressive students who like to jump in very fast and get the best of the results right from the first experiment (bachche!!! welcome to real science....hares dont win the race)
From my side sincerely and seriously Iam trying really really hard not to show all this frustration on him and teach him what all I can and be a good supervisor (not the hitler type ;))......hope I am... :D

Got a good incubation time of 3hours now...so taking time for refreshing (pouring down my blabber here relieves me a lot :):)...let me know how boring it is to read) and get back to my report writing mood.

For now gotto go...adios.....pray to god for more energy..more time :)))

Cant leave without singing in

"Katra katra milti hai
katra katra jeene doo
zindagi hai, bahane doo
pyaasi hu main pyaasi rehne doo......"

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