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Today is filled with a wide variety of thoughts, highly mixed feelings of happiness, sadness, anger, frustration, agitation, fear, embarassment, contentment, .......

1. Was happy to see tamms all packed and excited to go home.
2. Was sad to see him leaving...gonna miss him for next few days.
3. Was angry on myself for being unorganised (I forgot to write an important reply to colleague in Italy...she should have waited for that y´day, I misplaced an address sheet from a person who asked for help in finding the address).
4. Was frustrated for not making any progress in writing in the last two days. (couldnt reach the selfset deadline).
5. Agitated by all the above feelings flashing together at the same time in the mind.
6. Feared of wasting one more day (was able to overcome this by afternoon....writing few pages of the thesis).
7. Got embarrassed to face a conversation about some bitter truths of life (but was able to gather my senses with the help of the converser and get back to saneness)
8. Contentment right now (at the end of the day) to have had a "not so bad day" regarding work and determined to climb the ladder without any more pauses. :):):)

Along with all this also came these beautiful words of Gulzar saab from Gharonda in my mind

"Eh Akela Is shahar mein, raat mein aur dopahar mein
Aaa bodaana dhoondhataa hai, aashiyaana dhoondhataa hai
Is umr se lambii sadakon o, manzil pe pahoonchate dekhaa nahii
Bas daudhatii phiraatii rahatii hai, ham ne to taharthe dekhaa nahii
Is ajnabee se shehar mein, jaanaa pahachaana dhoondhataa hai
Ek akela is shehar mein.....